I was a bad Cindy last night. Enough about that, though.

I am so in love with my family right now. It's a wonderful feeling. I don't make enough time in my life to just enjoy it for what it is right now. I'm always thinking about something else: creating, growing, the future, building...I need to learn to treasure the moment and I had one of those rare times in my life yesterday. And, if you can believe it, it was triggered by a meeting I had with my boss yesterday morning.

My boss frustrates me to no end, but we honestly have a really good relationship. I had my son with me, because we had just left the doctor's office where he got his cast and we went straight to meet my boss at the hotel he was staying in. We met in the restaurant in the hotel and he insisted on buying us breakfast. I was sitting at the table discussing the menu choices with my son. And I, of course, had to keep telling him "no" on what he wanted. My boss kept looking at me funny and finally just said "He just broke his damn foot and you're not going to let him have some bacon?" Yeah, I know he had no right to say that, and it's a horrible idea to comfort yourself with food, and blah blah blah...BUT, it made me realize that I am ALWAYS thinking of the future and almost never appreciate the moment.

I never make bacon at home and never let my son get it when we eat out, but he LOVES bacon. I worry about it stinking up the house and clogging the pipes and clogging his arteries. Pathetic, I know. But that is how my brain functions with everything. My poor baby struggled to get to the hotel restaurant in his new cast and crutches and I wanted to make him have a fruit cup and yogurt with water while he sat there while my boss and I talked. I decided to let him get whatever he wanted and he just lit up and enjoyed that damned bacon. And I watched him and watched my boss interacting with him and I just fell in love with him and the moment and my husband, and everything about my life. Weird, I know.