About 7 weeks here, trying to get a full smile on camera but not succeeding. ----->

So my life is not going how I had hoped/planned it would since starting back to work. While I certainly can't call it "bad," it isn't good, either. We're getting through each day as best we can but it is a mess. This whole not having a closed-in (read: QUIET) office business is creating a much larger problem than I thought and we've got to address that immediately. It's a struggle to even get a shower in the mornings, not to mention exercising and eating a proper meal so that whole taking care of my health thing is on hold and I'm just hoping for the best. And I don't even remember the last time I actually cooked a meal for us. It's been a few weeks.

And this, too, shall pass.

Just random updates:
My first day back to work my boss advised me that they've had to change the compensation structure twice since I'd been gone and to expect mine to change. That means I'll be making less money now but more when the business picks back up. I'm okay with that. I'd rather take a small pay cut than not have a job...especially with the likelihood of making more as the economy improves. However, he said if I can bill 20 - 25 hours a week, they will not have to make the pay change for now. I asked him to just hold off making any changes until I can get my mortgage refinanced in a couple weeks and he said that shouldn't be a problem. I think the comp change was necessary because they hired that other guy last year at a LOT more than what I was getting paid and I am much more productive than he is. He told me over lunch last year that he had to take a $20K cut in pay a few months after he started full time with us. I don't even want to know what they offered him to begin with...it obviously wasn't very reasonable. I know I am underpaid, but I have some huge perks with working from home and a ton of flexibility and control in how and what I do that I wouldn't be afforded anywhere else. Can't put a price tag on that.

My boy needs glasses. I thought it was going to happen as he entered puberty and here we are. He's also getting my curly hair. I was expecting that, too, but you never know for sure about these things until they happen. He's not loving it right now but I told him that he would as soon as the girls start noticing it.

Baby girl absolutely refuses to take a bottle. And then screams bloody murder until she gets her boob. A small part of me finds it sweet that only I can feed her but the larger part is screaming OMG! What in the hell is going to happen when I have to go onsite with a client??? Even if it is only for the day? Is Prince Charming going to have a screaming baby all day long? Is she going to get dehydrated? Ugh. I've managed to get almost 100 oz of milk pumped and stored but it looks like that has been a waste if she won't take it. I'm going to try not to pump, anymore. I hate it, anyway. No point in continuing that nonsense if it will never get used.

Enough whining for now, I guess. I gotta get back to work.