Our little man (and the last baby that is ever going to come out of my uterus) is 10 weeks old! His name is Cameron Blake and he was born 4 weeks early at 8 lb 15 oz, 21 in. long. It was a horribly traumatic "birth" experience that lasted 31 hours and ended in a c-section. A far, far cry from the 80-minute hippie birth of my daughter (who is going to be two in January)! We are the exhausted parents of two under two and a teenager that will be a freshman in high school next year!!! The recovery from the c-section has been horrendous and I am still sore when I get out of bed or when I walk too fast or too long or just do anything strenuous, at all.

So, here I am, about 4 years since the last time I logged my food and quit running and a little over 3 years of trying to get pregnant, being pregnant or recovering from being pregnant. I am, surprisingly, only about 20 - 30 pounds heavier than I was 4 years ago. And I am still nursing...which translates into me eating all the garbage I want without gaining weight. That is going to stop this week and I am going to use the final 6 - 7 weeks of nursing to actually lose a little weight. I am not going to start logging right now, though. Just cleaning up the diet and see how that goes. There is just too much going on in my life right now to try to add any complications, at all.

I just spent a very LARGE amount of money on new clothes and shoes because I haven't shopped for clothes in over three years and I have to start going to an office twice a week starting in January. The dress code is "nice" casual or business casual, not pajamas and old sweats. I wear a size 12W shoe and I am FINALLY, at 35 years of age, able to find women's shoes that fit. If you can imagine wearing men's shoes your whole life and then finding nice shoes online--and LOTS of them--well, I have gone a little crazy on shoes. I can actually pick a pair of shoes to wear from my closet for the first time in my life. I always had a pair of men's tennis shoes and an ill-fitting pair of black "leather" shoes from Payless to choose from. Not now! Thank you (curse you) zappos.com and endless.com! I'm also finding some really awesome jackets and dresses at Coldwater Creek, dresses from JC Penney and jeans at Lane Bryant that fit well. This is the first time I have ever enjoyed shopping--probably because it is online.

We are in a horrible rent house that we hate right now. We were starting to look at houses, but my instincts are telling me to not pursue that right now. Can't explain it. But, we have learned that if we don't listen to my gut, it always turns out bad. So, we are going to get a car first. The original plan was to get the house, then the car. We need a minivan. We can't fit five people in the Murano with two car seats. So, we're going to get the new Quest next month, probably the last few days of the year to hopefully get the best deal possible. I don't really like any of the colors the thing comes in, so I'll just buy what we can get the best deal on. With pre-arranged financing through the credit union. I'm sure the car dealer will hate us being non-emotional buyers with the loan "in hand."

I will start writing in my journal more regularly now. I've been reading all of the long-timers journals this whole time, though, and commenting very infrequently. It's been nice seeing how everyone's lives have changed over the several years I've been a member here.