Today, I woke up grumpy. It isn't often that I wake up in a bad mood for no reason. My sugars were high (146), I feel bloated. My throat is scratchy. My weight is a little bit up. My ankles are slightly swollen. I can see the edema in my hands, I can feel the edema in my hands as I type.

My husband took me to work this morning. He wanted to go out to breakfast. But being in the mood I'm in, I said I needed to go to work. So we stopped off at McDonalds and I had a breakfast burrito. Then, at work, I ate Light, fat free Pringles. This behavior has only added to my bloated feeling and grumpy.

I want my rose colored glasses back. Every 30 minutes, I will think a happy thought until my rose colored glasses come back. I need to find some happy music to listen to. That will help me.

First happy thought: The beach, feeling the hot sand, the smell of the ocean, jumping in the waves, looking for sea shells, listening to the surf, a child with a pail and shovel, eating food with sand in it, body surfing.

I'm beginning to feel better, but I need to find a good CD to listen to and get back to work.

Second happy thought: Baseball game, eating a hot dog, hearing the crack of the bat, singing Take Me Out to the Ball Game, hoping to catch a fly, hitting the ball out of the park, doing the wave, watching a zealous fan get the crowd riled up and then being escorted out of the ball park, watching the manager and the umpire go toe to toe, peanuts, watching the mascot to crazy things.

Third happy thought: Smells - the good ones, fresh coffee, bread baking, baking anything but fish, grilled onions, carnations, spices like cloves and cinnamon, lemons, oranges, a newborn, pine trees, lilacs.

Feeling better now. I think the positive thoughts and lots of water helped wash away the grumpy, bloated feelings.