So today has been a good day so far. Got up a little late, but I didn't let it ruin my plans. I dropped a class I was failing because (1) it's useless and (2) it was bringing down my entire GPA. So, that was a bittersweet moment. Then, I went to workout today and had a WONDERFUL workout. It felt really good, especially considering I haven't been to the gym since last Thursday. I burned some steam and I find myself becoming very intense during the work outs.

Overall, however, I feel really good about myself. I'm almost at the 20lb mark which is AWESOME - esp considering I started Sept 16! It's also probably because I have a lot of weight to lose so of course, it's falling off fast now. I'm not really feeling stressed about how long the process will be because the process makes more sense to me now. I understand that you have to put forth effort to get results. I understand that this isn't going to be easy. I understand that I won't necessarily see results tomorrow, but the harder I work, the sooner I will see them. I am in good spirits about this journey and about this process. Now granted, tomorrow, I may right and say 'I can't handle this anymore!" but I think it's just a part of the stress and the anxiety that comes along with the unfamiliar territory of weight loss.

I am starting to worry about going home for Thanksgiving though because I am from a family of overeaters and big, black women who LOVE to eat. Plus, I won't have a gym available to me at home. So I think I might buy Tae Bo or something and just do something like that while I'm at home.

In my head and in my heart, I am just in a really good place. I feel more confident, I feel more beautiful already, and I feel like I'm in this for the long haul. I also LOVE calorieking because there is SO much support on this site. No case of the Mondays here...