Thanksgiving is coming up and I REALLY want to go home and look great for my mom! I want her to be like, "wow, Denita, I can see the progress". I keep getting worried that maybe I'm not eating enough calories and I don't really want to increase my calories because I'm not starving or anything. I eat 1200 to 1350 a day and it's not like I starve . I'm just stressing myself out I guess. I'm honestly petrified of hitting a plateau or having a week where I don't gain. That's honestly what I'm most scared of. But besides all this, I feel much better, and things are starting to get a little easier. I got a 2nd job (I actually may quit this one because a better opportunity may have come along), I'm going to VA after almost 3 years in about a month to see my old friends and I am SO excited, and I am just in a good place. I am eating nachos for dinner tonight and I am SO excited! I don't know if I should be excited, but I am. My ideal "body" is Toccara (America's Next Top Model) without all the boobs. I feel like maybe I should switch from the Arc Trainer, because I don't want my body to get too "complacent". I just feel really good about all the changes I've made and I don't see why I would want to go back to eating the way I used to. I am really proud of myself! Tomorrow is weigh in and i PROBABLY shouldn't eat nachos but hey i've got the calories to cover it so i dont care! It's all about moderation, right?! Anywho, I have the interview for the 2nd second job Monday and I may have to get a new outfit (somehow) because my old work clothes are all uber baggy. It is such a good feeling to NOT have failure as an option anymore! GO ME!