12:45 pm EST
For some reason today, I am just in the mood to eat. I'm at work #1 right now, and the office is filled with the smell of Chinese food (one woman is eating Moo Shu Pork, while the other is eating Sesame Chicken - Yum). I LOVE chinese food! Then, I am in the mood for Arby's today, just because I haven't had a roast beef sandwich in a while. I know that eating these things won't make me feel better, but it just sounds good. It's weird being in touch with my food emotions. I feel a lot more control in terms of food and eating, but times like now, the old me would order a Brooklyn Style pizza from Domino's, throw back some drinks and just sit around (it does sound kind of good - haha). I don't really want it though, it just sounds good.

Anywho, so I am kind of annoyed with my body because I keep losing weight and oddly, I don't want to. I haven't been to the gym in nearly 2 weeks (not necessarily by choice) but I work in the stockroom at my new job so I get some exercise in there just from lifting boxes and climbing ladders for 4 - 6 hours. [I may go to the gym early tom morning - note to self.] MAN! Why am I so "hungry" today?! I wish I had some gum. [Found some!] I'm so bored right now at work. I have nothing to do but sit here and wait for someone to call so I can answer the phone and pretend to be busy. Anywho, so I'm down 33lbs and my body is TOTALLY changing before my eyes. I'm getting so excited to get to 40lbs (hopefully, it will approach soon!). I can't wait to take another after picture!!!! I took a picture on Thanksgiving and you can see the difference in my face (its my profile pic). There was this pic of me @ my mom's house from before I left for school, and I looked like a chocolate oompa loompa. I turned it down at first, but I figured that I shouldn't be so negative towards myself. After all, it was still me in the picture, just 30 lbs ago.

Anywho [my thoughts are all over the place today] I can't WAIT to hit my first intermediate goal: 250lbs. That is where I was when I FIRST FIRST started losing weight two years ago (which I gained back 40 + 46 = 86 ls gained). Hopefully I will be there by January 1, 2007. My trip to VA is coming up and I'm not really as worried as I was. I'm going to try my best to check in on CK as often as possible, as CK gives me added motivation. Plus, I'm going to buy a workout DVD (I keep saying I am and haven't) so I can do something . I'm excited to see all my old friends. I know I won't be my smallest, but I will be healthier and that is enough pay off for me! I'm just excited to see everyone! Anywho, I can't think of anything else to write for the time being. Maybe I'll write more later!