I am so ready to get back to school. I mean I love being at moms house and all, but I MISS my controlled environment. I have been eating just to eat just because I can. But it gets old. I am ready to get back to my Raisin Bran and bananas. My chicken spaghetti. My broccoli. My fish. I miss it! I miss my fitness center! now granted, I don't HAVE to eat bad, but I guess I've chosen to eat carelessly and w/o discipline because i can. But it's stupid. I don't know how I could have ever eaten like this. BO-RING! I like to eat with a purpose and not just eat . Anywho, so I feel a little better about the situation. Still giving me some drama, but I am ready to work on me and get my life back in order and just be happy w/o having my happiness be dependent on someone else! I have a laundry list of "New Year's Resolutions" or - as I am now calling it, a "Life Improvement Plan", or LIP (lol I just made it up and i LOVE it!). Anywho, so I am ready to mingle with some new people. Not necessarily date, just mingle and see what happens. I'm so eager to get back in the gym! LoL I know, random, but I am ready! I've kinda decided I'm not going to move out because 1)I don't think I should have to and 2)it's my house too and 3)NOBODY SHOULD MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I DON'T BELONG!

So, having said that, when I get back to school, I am taking my car keys back, but we'll see where everything goes. I think that once I find a "friend" or whatever, I won't care what ex does. Besides, I'm too busy to even care!! I'm even excited to get back to work. I miss my controlled environment. Anywho, one of the things on my LIP is to be less reclusive. I am a self-admitted social butterfly, but its easier for me to just stay in rather than go out and make myself available, but I'm determined to get out and min-gle! Even if it is just with girlfriends, I really need to get out and OFF the computer! I am uber-excited about 2007, because it is going to be an AWESOME year, i can tell already. I am going to become a new Denita and who knows, maybe someone exciting will spark my interest (So all you hot, single, CK hotties, just click that "Send dbraziel a personal Message" link and I'm ready - lol )If not, oh well, I'll find a way to deal.

I've been having a great time with my mom though, she's the best. She always makes me feel better about life. Yesterday we went to Slyman's and i hadn't been there in like 15 years and it was absolutely FAB-U-LOUS! I mean, sure the sandwiches are $10, but I think they are worth it. I treated my moms and that always makes me smile. THEN, we went and did endured in some retail therapy (i cant wait to partake in my FITNESS THERAPY) and I got her the cutest classy hooker boots and a top and I've been trying to persuade her to wear it, but she calmly declines each time (what a party pooper). Strangely, my mom and I still share clothes and we go to bars/clubs together (and I love it!). But, regardless of the "drama' and the let-downs, I am attempting to move on! 2007 is my year! OH yea, I can't wait to get to my PC at school so I can blog every 10 minutes! I LOVE YOU CK loves! LOVE YOU GUYS TO PIECES!!