Well, it is still Christmas. Anywho, so it's another Xmas here. Me and my bros didn't really get anything, and I really didn't mind it. I don't really care about the presents anymore, honestly. I just look forward to being around my family. My father moved to St. Louis on friday, so I was slightly disappointed that he wasn't here to at least visit and say "merry christmas". I guess a phone call will suffice. There's still drama in the ex department. I went to get my car yesterday from ex and it turned out to be a HUGE argument. So yea, that was kind of gross but I'm trying not to worry about that today. My mom is in fun spirits today. She is excited about "texting" now and so she "texted" everyone this AM and was so proud of her self. Yesterday, she had a church choir concert and it was so cute! I felt like a proud mom watching her daughter's first play. She is too cute. She lacked rhythm and it was just really fun to watch her. My brothers came home last night and thats always good. This morning I was in a really crappy mood, so I decided to go and get christmas cards for the family. It made me feel a little better. I decided not to dwell on life's imperfections for the time being and just be grateful for what I do have. I'm still hurt though, I can't lie to you. Anywho, so I'm just anxious to get back to school and see where things go. I don't know if I want to move out yet, so I guess it's going to be time for some serious to with ex to figure things out. If ex and I don't figure things out, I am absolutely going to stop dwelling and be a super mingler. I already have my eyes on some people but I'm not sure if I have the guts to pursue anything with anyone. Not even to like date though, just to be friends and see what happens. Other than that, life is OK. I am anxious to get back home and workout and eat Raisin Bran and be healthy again. I don't like eating whatever, I really don't! When I get back, I'm back in business. I was just looking at pictures of me from when I lost weight the first time: UBER HOTT!! I can't wait to get back there (first, I need to see exactly where I'm at when I get to school [insert sad face] ). Oh well on the phone with pops...later gaterz!!