Day 14 of 142
Is it weird that I get a rush out of grocery shopping for good food? I think I spend a majority of my money on groceries. I love buying food. But it's not like i go to buy bad food, I love buying good, "healthy" food! If I could be a personal grocery shopper, I think I would (If anyone needs me to do their grocery shopping, IM HERE!) Anywho, so today has been an OK day. I had my bio test today and - hmmm - I don't see an A in my future. After my test i went grocery shopping because I really wanted a smart ones to mix with brown rice. It is SO filling! Plus they were on sale for a dollar so HELLO?! Maybe I'm a bargaholic. (bargain). Then I got a Mac & Cheese smart ones because I need to satisfy my need to Mac & Cheese. THEN they had Jennie-O stuff buy one get one free and I coulda let out a huge HOLLA in the middle of the grocery store, but I didn't feel like getting too ethnic. I got some ground turkey & turkey brats (yahoo!!). I also got more Fiber One bars (they weren't onsale but I don't care - I'm in ) and some other stuff. Sorry, didn't mean to rant about the food I bought.

Anywho, so this weekend an old friend is supposed to visit. We'll see how that goes. I have a feeling I'll get annoyed within 20 minutes and be like "OK, are you ready to go?" I'm far too irritable. My friend told me that I could be bi-polar. I just said I'm too moody for their tastes.

So, I'm not sure if this Lauren thing is going to go anywhere. To be honest, I know that some people think being "mysterious" is sexy or whatever, but I think its a cop out and its stupid. I have a huge issue with vulnerability and being open, and i don't like when the vulnerability see-saw is uneven. I think in order for complete honesty, both parties have to be equally open to being open. He is always telling me to "express myself" but then when I ask him to he acts like he has nothing to say. Regardless of if he likes me or whatever, I'm not about to be open with anyone who won't do the same. That's a huge pet peeve. I think that when someone opens up to you, that's a HUGE gift and the best way to return it is to be honest and open with them too. So, I am done putting any weight into my feelings for this neandrethal (sp). If you want me, prove it. If you don't, then I really am probably better off without you.

Anywho, my hair is nappier than _______________ (I was going to put a racial joke in there, but I didn't want anyone to post a thread trying to block my blog - sorry, i'm an a$$). I am putting a relaxer in my hair after i work out. It's a CLEAR sign it's time to relax your hair when you comb your hair and every time you're like "Oh $h!t that hurts!". Yep, I've got the _____ naps (another ignorant/racial comment).

Anywho, I have to do some work. I'm only here for 3 hours so I have to get SOMETHING done! Lata...

Tidbits!!!
**I'm not easily offended at all - unless you talk about my family or people who can't defend themselves
**I go to sleep watching Nickelodeon so I can wake up to Spongebob
**I The Daily Show & The Colbert Report
**In middle school, I adapted the NOW ever-so-popular nickname "Nitabra" NOT because its a combo of my first & last name, but because when I first "sprouted", I only wore one bra and it created a lot of bounce-age and my neighbor began the torement. Actually, once on the morning announcements, they called me to the office and called me "Nitabra" over the speaker in front of the whole school.
**the school that I transferred from is where both of my brothers now go. The school I transferred to NOW is only 20 minutes from my brothers.

<9:00pm
So yea, I am having a binge attack tonight. It's weird though because I'm not really mad at myself or anything. It's kinda just like, "eh, you'll just have to fix it tomorrow". I dunno, I think I've known that I would eat like crap tonight, so I'm just not worried. I've been eating well so I guess one night won't hurt. Well, I hope not. Anywho, later!