Pic of my mom's friend aka surrogate mom, bro's ex gf, old fat me, and my MOMMY. This pic is from like...July?! Needless to say, pretty obese. BUT MY MOM IS GREAT!

CK is uber slow today!! Omg, i have been checking like every 10 seconds to try to get in - i guess ill have to be patient if i really want to use it! So this AM, the weight was 249.0. I was ok with that. I mean, at least it's going down. I'm trying to watch my salt so I can get some of this water out of my a$$. Anywho, I'm still feeling better though! I had a talk with my work buddy today about what scares me about being smaller and it gave me some insight...on life.

I finally finished this annotated biography and i must admit, i didn't read any of the books i just wrote about. I skimmed a few pages and then wrote a paragraph. hopefully it's not obvious. If it is, who cares, I'll just re-write it. I hate school. I am SO HUNGRY!!!!! So, lately I've been getting up at 8:45am when I have to be at work at 9:00 and um, lets just say its not working out. I mean I get to work by 9:25 (which i think is pretty impressive) but I need to get my a$$ 1)to bed earlier and 2)up earlier. I sleep. So there's this new Brit chick named Lily Allen whom I've just discovered and her new song "Smile" is awesome. It reminds me of my ex. Here are some lyrics:

When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were ing that girl next door, what ya do that for
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Anywho, I need to eat before my stomach comes out of my skin Cabin Fever style. Later s