I'm back to counting the days...Day 25 of 142

So today I'm back on top of things. I realized that I let myself get a little out of hand with A LOT of things and that I was pretty much continuing to make excuses for my lack of success. But anywho, today is better! I Tuesdays because I don't have anything to do unitl 4pm, so waking up at 11 was every ounce of fabulous. I don't know if I told you guys, but I applied to be an RA at my school and I have my interview next Thursday and I am UBER nervous. I think I'll be fine though. As long as I let my personality shine through, i think i should be good. This weekend I need to go and get a shirt because none of my blouses fit anymore. I have two pairs of work pants that fit, so I'm going to have to get something that centers around the two pairs of pants that fit!
I'm also determined to do better this quarter. I've really been slacking (I just haven't really been feeling it this quarter), but I need to at least get a 2.5 this quarter. Even with that I'd probably be disappointed with myself. I need to get back on the ball.

This AM I weighed at 244.0. Pretty nice, but I feel like I need to get on my knees and apologize to my body for being so mean to it the past few weeks. I can only imagine the agony of going up and down so much! Me and my brother were joking and we decided to call days we eat like crap "Metabolism boosters". LoL

I've really appreciated all the swift kicks in the a$$ I've gotten lately. My mom isn't here to really tell me I'm messing up, so its nice to know that you guys keep me accountable. Now when I do things I think, "would I want to blog about that?!" Sad, but true! You guys keep me grounded!

A lady from my job approached me the other day and asked me if I'd like to work out with her daughter. She said that once she told her daughter how much I've lost, the daughter was so excited about the idea. It just seems kind of weird, I'm like, why would you want to work out with me?! I dunno, the idea that I've lost 50+ lbs doesn't seem all that exciting. Ok, it does, but nothing like uber serious or anything. Maybe once I'm at 60 or 70 I'll be like "OH YEA IM A BIG DEAL". I dunno.

Oh, and I was talking to my best friend online the other day, and she told me she is going on a "Weight Loss Retreat" to "learn the basics of losing weight and get a jump start". I told her if thats what she feels she needs then go for it, but honestly, I think it's an excuse to go on vacation. If you really wanted to lose weight, you would educate yourself on the what you need to know. Maybe some people need a vacation to for motivation. To me it just seems like a useless load of crap. I dunno, I wouldn't tell her that. But I really don't think a vacation is going to help you lose and CONTINUE to lose weight. Just my opinion.

Other than the not-so-madness going on, things are going well. I'm getting back on track one day at a time. I'm still exercising. And I'm still trying to stay positive! I've still got my bathing suit sitting in my drawer just WAITING to make its debut. It's weird, I get excited walking past the bathing suit aisle because I'm like I can't WAIT to see what I'll look like in June!! Oh, the excitement. I'm going to make it though. I know I am. Even last week when I really hit a road block, failure was never an option - and its STILL not! Just because I mess up doesn't mean it's all over. It just means it may take a little longer to get there.

10:42pm
Can I just tell you how GRATEFUL I am that I don't keep foods around that will probably ruin my life?! If I had those foods in the house, I would definitely eat them whenever I had the urge. I'll never forget when I had the Reduced Fat ruffles and I could NOT control myself. In the event that I ever get them again, I'm going to split them up AS SOON AS I GET HOME into their appropriate serving sizes. Today has been a good day. I had some calories to spare, so I made a baby omelet and it was UBER good! My salt was pretty high but I'm not all too concerned. Tomorrow will be a long day. I need to get a good start on my paper since I'm pretty sure I'll be really busy this weekend. Anywho, I just felt like writing before I went to bed. Good night CK loves!!! and