Day 26 of 142
I am so PooPeD today. I was walking to work and I think I almost fell asleep. I went to bed at like 12:45 (early for me) so I don't know what the hell is wrong with my sleep patterns. Today the scale said 243.6. I was pretty happy about that, but it was weird because i kind of freaked out. I think I'm starting to get scared of losing weight. I don't know what it is, it's just scary. I don't know what I'll look like, how people will react to me, it's scary $h!t. But I'm trying to continue to tell myself "one day at a time". That's really all I can keep saying to myself. Even thinking about tomorrow is overwhelming!

So the past few nights I have had the WEIRDEST dreams about dating celebrities! It's not a first. My old dream husband was Travis Barker. The other night, i had a dream I was dating Verne Troyer (lmao!) and it was PRETTY entertaining. I think that dream pretty much meant that I was getting lonely. THEN, last night I had a dream I was dating Lil Wayne. Every dream is the same, and every time I wake up like "that was interesting...but i liked it!". If I could snuggle like my dreams, I'd be one happy woman. And if it was with someone with money, I'd be even happier.

I have an uber busy day today. I think I'll get started! Later!!

6:45pm
So I had a crappy workout today and it kinda aggravated me. Reason: GAS! It got so bad at a certain point that i got a headache and I could barely push myself because my head was pounding. I kept thinking it was about to just come out, so I was so busy tryin to make sure i didn't fart/poo on myself I could barely get into my workout! Damn you, Fiber.

So today at work, I was telling my co-workers about how I have this weird infatuation with spandex. They thought I was crazy, but I was uber-serious. I really do Spandex! I have always wanted a pair of those shiny track spandex pants/capris. They are so sexy. I used to want to play volleyball just so I could wear spandex. Weird? I think not. I just love Spandex: the tighter, the better.

I just saw this VH1 commercial and I saw Verne Troyer and I was like EEEK! LoL it's as if it were a bad one night stand or something. GOD! Is it possible for gas to give you a headache?

Lately, I've noticed that some of the stretch marks on my stomach from when I gained 80 lbs are starting to scab. I don't know if that means they are going away or healing or what, but its just kind of weird. I have some scabbing on my stomach and on my back and I'm not sure what it is; I hope it does mean they are going away! Also, I've noticed I have a lot of flabby skin on my arms and I don't know if its just fat or if its loose skin. Oh the horror! All these stretch marks and all this skin. Dr. 90210 where are you?!

Oh, I need some Tylenol. My head is BANGING! Oh, and I really need to work on this paper that I've been putting off for ages. Tambien, tengo que estudiar para el clase de espanol. El Espanol me dice, Estudieme!