Pic: this is me and ex's brother and sister on Easter. I swore i was hot ishhh. I mean, I'm sure I was, if that's what 300lb hot ish looked like!

Day 32 of 142

I how after a snow, the sun reflects on the snow and it is SO bright outside. I love it. Sunglasses in winter are great. Anywho, today's been a fairly uneventful day. Our campus opened 2 hours late - I don't know who that applied to, but my day didn't start until 10! i called off work so I could study for my bio test, which I think went...OK. I came home and ate a FABULOUS white pizza with chicken and bacon. It was really good. It's made of:

1 whole wheat pita
1/8 cup (or 2 tbsp) of Ragu Parmesan and Mozzarella Sauce
1 oz of reduced fat mozzarella
appx 1.5/2oz of boneless skinless chicken breast
1 piece of fully cooked bacon

Now mind you, it may not be full of nutrient density, butI though it was fabulous AND IT WAS ONLY LIKE 350 CALS!! Tomorrow is my CA interview and I'm kind of nervous. Tonight, after my workout (and hopefully kickboxing), I'm going to do some practice interview questions. I have a hard time "practicing" because I can't focus! and I can't do a mock interview because I'll laugh. So, we'll see what I can come up with.

Without my Fiber One bars, my fiber has been pretty crappy. So i need to go get some more of those tonight/tomorrow. I love a fiber one bar before a workout. They always give me crazy energy.

Tomorrow is weigh-in and I think, for the first time, I'm going to do it au naturel. I usually just weigh in my lightweight jammies, but we'll see what nudiness will do. I'm excited, because, if all goes as planned, next week I'll meet -60! Kind of exciting. Kind of not. Every time I get to a goal, I'll be like "this isn't enough. Must. lose. more."

I'm in English right now not doing a d@mn thing. He teaches for 30 minutes, and then for an hour and 20 minutes, we just kind of fend for ourselves and "do research". Sorry prof, I don't feel like it. Oh well, that's more time for mindless blournaling.

My brothers are having a party at their school for ther 21st birthday in 2 weeks and I don't know if I'm all that excited. First of all, I don't really hang out with ppl at their school all like that (except my friend Sara & her bf), so I guess I could always hang out with them. More than that though, it's going to be at my old roommate's house. And my old roommate lives with this girl who, on one drunk night, I tried to fight. Needless to say, I'm kosher with her now and hold no grudges, but I still don't like her in real life. So I dunno, I'll probably show and try to havea good time. And I'm sure my one brother will probably drink to the point of obliteration, but I mean, as their sis, I guess I'll go.

I'm looking forward to another alcohol-free weekend. I don't really have an urge to drink like i did. I dunno, I think I use alcohol for its escapist effects. I'm going to just start b eing accountable for what I do and not be drunk so I can use it as my "excuse" [Cynthia, old Denita is backkkkk ]. I dunno, I'm getting older and don't really care to be "wasted" or "drunk" anymore. Maybe I'll get into wine sipping or something. Who knows. I've got weight to lose anyways and drinking is SO counterproductive it doesn't make sense.

I totally didn't realize that next Wednesday is valentine's day. I mean it's really not that big of a deal, but having a cuddle buddy is always fun! On the plus side, I don't have to worry about a)getting chocolates, or b)spending my money on anyone else! I was thinking about random-guy-in-the-tunnel today. He didn't call yesterday, which I thought was odd for someone who was so SURE they wanted me. I've come to the conclusion that a)he was an illegal alien who needed immediate citizenship, b) he was wanted by the police and wanted a prison woman or c)he's gay. oh well. Who's next?!?!

Anywho, hopefully tonight will be relaxing and maybe I'll get hit on in the tunnels again. LoL So much for wishful thinking. Later gators!