Not too much going on today. I only got appx 6 hrs of sleep last night but somehow managed to wake up not-so-sleepy. I almost fell on my a$$ walking to work this AM, but luckily I didn't and my life didn't end. I really don't have anything too exciting to write about today. I just ate this really crappy Lean Cuisine for lunch and I almost wish I hadn't even bought it because - after looking at the nut. facts - it wasn't even that good. The damn TV dinner had 63 carbs!!! Outrageous. So yea, note to self, no more of that "flavor" Lean Cuisine.

So all I've really been thinking about today is [gasp] tomorrow = decision day. Tomorrow I will find out if I got the CA job. I don't know what to think. I am trying my best to expect the worse so if/when i don't get it I won't be too disappointed but part of me really thinks that I did fairly well in my interviews and that there really shouldn't be much reason as to why I shouldn't get it but part of me is saying that there's no way in hell I could get it. I don't know. I just want to know. Although I'm preparing for the worst, I'd still be devastated if I didn't get it. UGH!! Pray that I stay sane and that I can appropriately handle whatever decision they came up with. GOSH I just want to knnooooowww.

Well, minus the stress of the CA decision, tomorrow is weigh-in day and I look forward to the number on my dry erase board FINALLY going down. This AM I was 237.2 (down .2 from 2 weeks ago) but hopefully tomorrow I will be in the 236s. I weigh around 9:30 - an hour later than I do on other days - so hopefully time will be on my side! This is my quasi-first weigh-in back on track so hopefully the scale tells mama good news. At least ONE thing has to go well for me!!

I'm uber stressed and anxious. I need to get out of my house and go be a productive member of society before beat myself up with shoulda coulda wouldas. I just hope I can accept the decision when I get it. Gross. Later!!!

Adding Something else...
OK, I'm SO sick of the coverage of "The Britney Spears meltdown". She's so annoying. I can't understand her life and what the hell she's doing with herself, but I'm just like ENOUGH already! I also don't understand why someone hasn't taken her f***ing kids from her because it's ridiculous how incredibly irresponsible she's being. I'm just annoyed. Either be a productive member of society or shut the hell up and stay bald.

8:33 pm
Fabulous dinner tonight!! I made eye round steak, mashed sweet potatoes, and green beans. Believe it or not, a year ago today all I could cook was breakfast and taco meat. That was also because I lived with ex and ex always did all the cooking so I never had to. Now that I'm independent I HAVE to cook and I it! I put 2 tablespoons of skim milk in the potatoes and 1 1/2 tsp of sugar and some cinnamon and it was SO fab!! I was uber proud of myself. Only 21 cooking like a pseudo-Emeril. LoL

Then, I went to Meijer and I got some Krusteaz fat free apple cinnamon muffin mix and I am uber excited to make them! 140 cals in 1 muffin. Yay!! So, luckily tonight I can eat a muffin and then go to sleep without anxiety. There's no point in stressing over something I can't change. So anywho, off to a night of TV and then hopefully bed before 2am! Good night!!!

9:55 pm
THESE MUFFINS ARE SO FREAKIN GOOD!!! How on Earth can I only have one?!?! I was thinking about having 2 muffins and fruit for breakfast, but I think it would piss me off. I'll stick to my raisin bran for the time being. WOW! Well, I think I'll have another. If an extra muffin ruins my weigh-in, then, well, it does!! I'm in