This is a product of me being bored photoshopping. How fun?!?!

Work is SOOO boring today. I have to do this stinkin inventory and it doesn't make any kind of sense and the people who are supposed to give instruction aren't in the office. I think I totally screwed it up, but if they had been available, it wouldn't be so screwy. Whatever - I can only do so much. Today is weigh-in but I'm not going to log it until tomorrow. I need good numbers baby!!!

So, I bought the Fiber One Honey clusters cereal (w/ 14g of Fiber) and it is AWESOME! The only problem is, well, within 20 minutes I felt like the lady in the "Gotta go, gotta go, gotta go right now" commercials. No, better yet it was the Pepto Max "Nausea, heart burn, indigestion, UPSET STOMACH, DIARRHEA". [I secretly love that commercial] Needless to say, I think I already lost some weight today.

America's Next Top Model was uber-motivating last night. There's this plus-sized model Whitney there who reminds me of Toccara from season 4 i think. I had totally forgotten about my goals to try plus-sized modelling and then i saw her and her confidence (oh, and her body) and I was like, "THAT'S GONNA BE ME!!!" I play these wild mind games with myself - absolutely WILD and cruel. I honestly had almost gotten to a point where I wanted to say "f**k this, I'm always gonna be fat" but then i looked at these pictures I have on my dry erase board on my wall & i realized, I can't get fat anymore. That's not an option. So, I just have to keep pushing. I heard this gospel song today that - although it was about Jesusy stuff, TOTALLY relates to how I've been feeling! Here are some lyrics:

There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how can I expect to win If I never try.

I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me

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Anywho, so I'm SO ready for spring break. I'm ready to go home and see my parents, I'm ready to see my work friends and ex-work lover . I'm excited. I gotta figure out how I'm going to work out while i'm there. There's a rec center there but i don't think they have like weekly passes or anything. I mean it costs $40 for a year membership but i dont wanna pay $40!!I'm cheap, i know.

OK, so I'm one who LOVES physical change and well, weight loss isn't enough. So I'm considering either a) dying my hair/eyebrows blonde or b)getting a facial piercing. I just want something different . The funny part is, facial piercings TOTALLY aren't my style, but it's different and I wanna try something new. I just know a facial piercing wouldn't make my mom proud. LoL So I dunno. Maybe I'll just say "no" to change for the time being. I'm too impulsive. That's my problem. I'd write more but the pee pee fairy just came and is tugging on my bladder. Later loves!!