7:30pm
So my mom called me today and said,
Mom- girl, i went to your calorieking-thing blog and girl, did you really look like that?!
Me - mom you saw me all summer, you know thats what i looked like.
Mom - Girl, i knew you put on some wait but DAMN thats a lot of woman!

Needless to say, she was proud of me. Gotta love my black mama.

So I wanted to re-phrase something I wrote earlier. I said I was worried I was becoming snobby and I think what I really mean is I don't want people to interpret me as being snobby because of the weight loss and me being proud. I guess I wonder, where is the line between being prideful and boastful? I dunno. I don't really like talking about it or having people mention it to me because it makes me feel really...almost ashamed. Like I don't want other people around me to feel bad or anything. It also makes me feel VERY uncomfortable when people mention it to me or congratulate me and what not. I mean, I AM proud of myself, but I just don't know if/how I can interject that to others. Whatev.

Anywho, the work out was OK today. On the Arc Trainer I told myself that I would NOT use the sidebars as a crutch during the 45 mins - I would either use my own free motion or the swingy bar things. And I succeeded! I think that musta screwed me over because when I went to do my 15 mins on the treadmill, on minute 3 of running i had a crazy cramp in my chest and had to walk after 5 minutes. Then I ran at 6.0 for the last minute though so that was cool.

Hopefully I can find something good to eat because I'm hungry and I'd like some excitement por favor. Have a great night lovelies!!


32 days left...
Today my best friend booked my trip to VA in July!! So excited!!! I think I'm most excited because I hope to -by July- be down 100lbs and it would just be FABULOUS to go back to VA and see everyone again and look absolutely amazing. So now this trip is added motivation for me to keep going. I'm so pumped.

Today has been an interesting day. i haven't been outside since 9am (every time I've walked to a building I took the tunnels) and I feel cramped by the walls. I'm in English right now trying to get some school work accomplished so i won't feel overwhelmed. I'm so anxious about finals week and I'm just ready for it to be over with. I'm getting excited for my trip to STL next week and going home to see my mom. yay. So much to look forward to! just a few more tests and papers to go.

Today at work, this lady stopped me to tell me how "fabulous" i look and how proud of me she was. It was very flattering. I'm still taken aback when people tell me that I look great and stuff. Sometimes I feel like I'm getting kind of snobby b/c I have lost this much weight but I don't want to change my personality because of my accomplishments. I need to really learn some humility. I don't know why I'd be like that or even THINK like that. yucky pooh.

Anywho, so I am going to finish the day on a high note. I'm going to the gym to do 45 - 60 mins of Cardio, go home and eat, and then relax and watch ANTM & Real World tonight. Then, tomorrow is weigh in and I have a good feeling about it. I'm hoping for 232 even, but I'd be content with 232.5. three more pounds and I'll in the 220s!! So close, so close. Alright, I need to finish my work. later gators!!