14 days til retirement aka my bday!!!


Here's a pic of me & my dad while I was in STL at the Arch. Cute right?!?!


I have been feeling kind of out of it the past few days. I got back to school on Saturday in my new room and everything and I really just feel extremely out of place and out of my element. I want to adapt well to change, but it's hard! There's just a lot going on, and I'm supposed to do it all with a smile on my face. I'm really overwhelmed by this new job because I was basically thrown into it. I want to be a great CA but I doubt whether or not I am creative enough or good enough (usual self-doubt). Additionally, the Bursar f*ed up my moneyagain so now I have to wait like an extra week for a fairly large sum of money. Oh, and my "service engine soon" light came on AGAIN and I'm like, "car, what NOW?!?!" Part of me has been thinking about getting a new car but I've decided to take out extra loan money next year so at the end of the next school year I can get one. I mean, sure I could use the money towards getting my car fixed toward a new car, but realistically i just can't afford a new car right now. Then, my family has just been really aggravating me lately and I'm just like ---- whatever. I'm tired. Oh yea. One more thing. I forgot my debit card AND my license at home because I was rushing to get back to school. So now i have to wait for my mom to send it to me so I can get some stinkin food.

I've been so off the ball with the life plan thing. So off. And it's crazy because it's really taking a toll on my self-esteem. I feel so gross, so unattractive, so unworthy. Today, I'm really making an effort to do everything I'm supposed to do so I can work to re-build my self-esteem. It's just kinda tough. It's alright. I can do it.

So I made this cute sign on my dry erase board that said Welcome Back and some stinkin kid put his fingers through it and wiped it off! I swear, college kids think they are so exempt from life. They better wait til my floor meeting tomorrow when I pop a cap in their a$$! Big dummies. Homey don't play that.


Anywho, I'm about to lay down before I go to the gym. I'm so tired. Later gators!!!