I was so proud of myself yesterday. After the news from the doctor, I'm not going to lie, I was slightly bummed. I don't mind not going to the gym because I don't feel like it, but when I'm told not to go, I'm like, well f*** you! I felt kinda empty like, "well what am i supposed to do with my time?!" I thought my eating had almost gone to hell after I ate a serving (=11/12) Doritos that were left over from a Program I did last week. I caught myself several times saying "Oh, f*** it, just call it a day" but I'd bring it back together and say "No, you aren't going to just give up today." So I kept myself busy, whether it was cyber stalking on Myspace, trying to learn Reality TV secrets, going to the store with my brother, whatever it took to not eat because of my unstable emotions. The only change (besides the doritos) was I had a salad w/my Lean Cusine panini instead of green beans & it actually turned out to be a smidge more fulfilling. I was just really proud of myself, I ended the day with 1611 calories I believe and I did it. I haven't controlled my urge to splurge like that in a while, so it felt really good.

My knee is already feeling soooo much better! I think I may go get a knee sleeve after class today and just continue to take the Ibuprofen & workout light today. I just really want to do some Cardio! I am so determined to do this 5K! Today I'm going to print out the sign up sheet and send it in! I've told a few people about doing it but sometimes I can kinda sense the "how the hell are you gonna do that?!" and I just want to prove I can do it! I really want to do this. Next Monday I'm going to start my "training". I'm not sure if I should start on the 1.5 run and build my way up to the 3.1 run or if I should just start and continue with the 3.1 run and just build my stamina on that. Any thoughts?

Anywho, today I decided I need to stop going to class looking like a bum. So I put some clothes on and I look fairly decent. A little fun fact, I have on a pair of jeans from when I first lost 40lbs my sophomore year in college. After I had started to gain weight, I gave my "skinny" clothes to my mom and just started building a fat clothes collection. Now I have no jeans that fit so that I believe is on the agenda for this week. They fit great too!

Can I just say that I am in need of some excitement in my life? A new friend, a date, a trip: something!! I think I'd just like a new "friend". I suck at being social (believe it or not). I think I need to start reaching out to...someone! I just need some fresh air in my stuffy CA/weight loss-filled life.

Anywho, I can't think of anything more to write. If I think of something while I sit here, I'll be baaaacck.


Have a fabulous Friday!