Ugh. Usually I don't let the scale affect how I feel or affect my day, but today the f***ing scale ws 228.4. I mean, I know it's really not weight gained and is fluid retention but damn does the scale not know how sensitive I am?! I think the reason I am so pissed at this # is 1)I am going to see my dad and I wanted to have the peace of mind that I had lost 69lbs (or even "70" ) so I could feel good and 2)i worked out yesterday and had another good eating day and resisted the urges to binge AND drink. I just think the scale could have rewarded me with a 226.8 or 227.0. Yesterday I was 227.4, the day before (weigh-in) I was 227.0 so I'm going to assume its water retention. Ugh, I just hate this feeling. I know Corrine knows the feeling. If I had her #, I woulda called her this morning crying like "WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN TO US?!?!?!" All I keep telling myself to try to stop stressing is "Denita, this is not a diet, it's a lifestyle change. You will get closer to your goal in due time. Stop stressing the short term." And yea, I know it's only 1lb but I'm sensitive. Yea TOM isn't for another 3 weeks but still, I need my ego stroked by the scale.

OK, enough of that stupid rant. I read over it and I sound like such a whiner. It's no big deal. Today, I am going to really focus to eat well. I don't have to say f*** it just because I am eating with non-dieters. I can do this! I have so many things to look forward to that I want to look my best for (my best friend is coming in May, 5K and family vacay in June, VA trip in July) so I am really trying to stay focused so I can look my absolute best for all occassions. I think I'm being too controlling. I need to chill out. Anywho, I need to finish getting dressed and peace out to pick up pics & then to see my pops! have a fab Saturday lovelies!!