10:47pm
Blah! I am so bored! Being on duty is poooooh. On a good note, I have been talking to my best friend on AIM all night so that's been kinda fun...well, as much excitement as I'll get! Today's workout was OK. I was planning on doing 35 mins on the treadmill but I wasn't sure if I was really ready to start running. Instead, I did 45 minutes on the Arc Trainer and 15 minutes on the treaddy. Well, I managed to still be able to jog 10 minutes (even though it was a little slower than usual -5.2/5.3 as opposed to 5.5) but it felt good and I think I'm ready! Tomorrow I am going to do 30 minutes on the Arcy & 35 on the treaddy and we'll see how that goes. Hopefully it will be great!!! I'm really antsy to increase my stamina and become a better runner. I need to get some better running shoes in due time, but I'll be patient.

I'm really trying to stay focused (again) on the plan. I am so anxious to be in the 210s! I'm just ready to lose this stinkin weight! I still feel so freakin fat. I had a friend take some "after" pictures today but they looked like sh!t. I actually looked fatter than the ones I have up now. I'm not gonna lie, it really pissed me off! I guess the only thing that is keeping me not so pissed is that in due time I won't look so fat. Ugh. These body image issues I'm dealing with need to be addressed fairly soon. Anywho, tonight is not and will not be a bad night! Alright. Intervention is on. Later!

Earlier today...
So that's kind of exciting! Today I'm feeling a lot better than yesterday. I'm still a smidge stressed, but I guess I'm trying not to dwell on it. I saw this Maya Angelou quote yesterday that really helped change my perspective:

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain.

So I think that is something I'd like to live by from this point forward. last night I had a pretty good workout. This AM the scale was 226.6 which means .6 more til I'm officially minus 70! That's pretty exciting. I am taking my Rinney-Pooh's advice and breaking this thing into 10 lb intervals so I dont get overwhelmed. But I'm feeling like I'm getting back to normal! My best friend has started "lifestyle changing" and so we talk about it a lot. I being able to support her on her journey and her being there for me as well. She is making a weight loss scrapbook that I think will be incredibly meaningful in the future. I am grateful to have such an amazing best friend.

Today, my knee is feeling much much better so I'm going to do 30 minutes on the Arc Trainer and 35 minutes on the treadmill to get ready for this 5K in June! Unfortunately I wasn't able to send in the paperwork last friday but I still intend to do this race.

This week I am on primary weekend duty which pretty much means sitting around being bored from tonight until monday morning. That should be exciting - NOT! Hopefully I'll get in some quality study time.

Yesterday I found out that the girl who died at VT who went to my high school was actually a girl I played basketball with. I'm at a place of peace now so all I do now is pray she and the rest of the victims are resting peacefully.

Anywho, that's about all the excitement going on over here! Maybe I'll write more as the day continues! Later!