Happy Sunday CK lies!!

I hope you're all resting - if not physically, at least mentally!

I don't really have too much to write on today, I just woke up about 30 minutes ago so my day hasn't exactly started yet. I try really hard to sleep in but I just can't. My bed is like the size of a crib so it's hard for my big butt to get comfortable. Last night rounds were cool - no kids drinking or smoking reefers so luckily we didn't have to write anyone up.

The scale was 225.2 this AM - at 11am (about an hour after I usually weigh). I had a high salt day yesterday (4000+) so I've made an effort today to keep it under 2000 and drink lots of water. I wasn't going to workout today, but I may just go do some Arc Trainer today just for fun & calorie burn. I had a really great workout yesterday, so I think today I might just do the Arcy & some lifting. Blah blah Sundays! Why they gots ta be so BORING?!

This AM I also woke up thinking about my stinkin summer plans. I need to get my financial aid done so I can determine if I'll be able to afford Summer school this year or if I'll just have to go to school for an extra quarter to graduate. I've decided to just stick with my Sociology major. It's far too much work to switch my major now, so I'm going to have to just pray that I can find a good job with my sociology degree after I graduate.

CK Rant
Why can't some members on CK just agree to disagree rather than being rude and disrespectful just because of someone's opposing viewpoint? I was reading through some of this drama regarding a certain member on the forums and, sure this person's views may appear to be "misogynist" and "condescending" but I've always been a firm believer that if you don't like it, don't look at it! And sure it may be offensive and you may feel the need to let the person know that it is offensive, but use some tact! I just feel like - although the messenger could change their approach - other people can say what they want to say without attacking an individual's character. If people really had a problem, they could send the individual a politely-worded PM. Even more so, if you "know" how the person is, why do you continue to read it?!

I don't know, I guess since CK has been such a positive experience for me, it annoys me when the little "fights" happen because I feel like they are interrupting my experience and my journey. I enjoy the forums thoroughly. I like the new member posts, I like the "I need motivation posts", I like the NDR posts, I like the Word Game posts, I like the success story posts! If I don't like it, I won't comment on it. I just wish some people would not ruin other people's experience because of a disagreement with another member. Maybe I'm naive and maybe my thoughts are ill-conceived, but it's just how I feel based on what I've seen. Can't we all just get along?!

Alright, I'm off my soapbox.

I hope everyone has a fabulous Sunday! Enjoy your families and your loved ones and just be grateful to have made it to another week!

here's a fun picture of my mom after she spilled bbq sauce on her clothes. I how she can just laugh it off. I love my mom

My sunday Motto: Don't sweat the small stuff


8:55pm
I don't know what it is, but all I want to do is eat!. I seriously feel like a drug addict who is craving drugs. I'm hot and sweaty, anxious, I can't concentrate: I don't understand why my body is feeling like this! I'm not starving myself, so why do I feel like this?? I'm trying my darnedest to just ignore it but part of me just wants to EAT. I'm craving EVERYTHING! I don't get it. I want fast food like my life depended on it. And for some reason I am torturing myself watching the food network just praying that I can eat with my mind and not with my mouth. I want donuts. I want cake. I want a cheeseburger. I want a chili dog. I want a cheesesteak. I want chinese food. I want Qdoba/Chipotle. I want a blizzard. I FLIPPIN WANT EVERYTHING!!! What the f*ck is going on?! I don't think I've felt like this in a while. I'm going to try to study and pray that this feeling goes away. If it doesn't, I'll make a ham, egg, & cheese bagel & just go to sleep. WHAT THE IS WRONG WITH ME?!?! I'm getting so pissed. I stepped on the scale in efforts to discourage myself but (un)fortunately I was 226.8 (which is really good post-dinner) so I couldn't bring myself to binge...yet. GOD! Take this feeling out of me! I do not want to f**k up right now. OK, I'm going to start studying and MAYBE it'll subside. Blogging and venting is what I need right now.

9:41 pm
SO i just ate half of an egg, canadian bacon, & cheese sandwich and it didn't set me too far over my cals. I think I was genuinely hungry. Ironically, I'm watching this show on the Travel network about the best places to pig out and - while part of me imagines the days when I would consider trying to eat a 12 egg omelette - a part of me says thank GOD i'm not fat enough to actually do it! These people are nuts. The size of these portions are nuts. I think the 12 egg omelette probably had AT LEAST 5,000 calories. Yuck. I think I'll be OK. I can do this.