Alright! So Denita's back. In full effect. Yesterday was a Yikes! kinda day. I don't like feeling like that. Anywho, after a DRAINING staff meeting last night, I went and picked up some milk & bananas from the store and - instead of cooking my meals for the week - I opted to just go home, and eat dinner. After dinner, I went to the computer lab and talked to my best friend and my brother online where I managed to cry my last tears and just get it all out! In addition, I got some GREAT PMs that had me in tears and feeling incredibly grateful for the support I have here. My best friend read my blog and was like, "wow, people really like you there" and it's true. I feel so loved! Not even in the cyber "I-don't-really-know-you-but-i'll-say-nice-things-just-because" kinda way, but that people genuinely want me to be OK and want me to be happy and I am incredibly grateful for that. After I left the PC lab feeling better, I realized I had some money left on my student ID card and I bought some chips from the vending machine that only had 140 cals/bag and that like made my night!! I don't know why, but it did (the little things). After that, I got home, called my mom and she gave me some insight into just having faith that everything happens for a reason and there's something to learn from this struggle. So I got off the phone and I felt ready to take on the world!

Today hasn't been too exciting. It's been difficult without my computer and having to do calorie counts in my head but I think I'm doing alright. After the gym, I'm going to go to my friends house and do my weekly meals. I only have to do up until Thursday because FRIDAY I get paid!!! Yay. I'm not sure what I'm doing this weekend, but hopefully 1)it's cheap, and 2)it's fun.

I think tonight I'm taking my stinkin acrylic nails off because they are getting on my NERVES. I really need to get my medicine for my eczema, and I'm having trouble finding a dr around here so i may just have to go to the health center again so they can write me a prescription. I've been reallly itchy, breaking out in my usual spots so i need my medicine ASAP.

Anywho, life is good! I feel better, I look good, I'm just happy today! Nothing is going to steal that! I can't think of anything else to write at this point. I'm hungry, I want a Fiber One bar, I'm still craving Chinese Food, and I still have nothing to be mad about. Life is fabulous. I you all so much!!!

I don't have too much time right now to write, but I just wanted to thank everyone for their fabulous words of encouragement. I reached out to some people last night, let out a lot of tears, and finally found some peace in the storm. Needless to say, today I feel rejuvenated and ready to be the fighter I've always been! Life is good and I'm not complaining (for today ) Anywho, I'll write a bit more later!! I you all!!