Bah...why did I eat that piece of cake?! I didn't need it! BAH! Now I feel like a failure and the only way to redeem myself is to go to the gym. But I don't really have time for the gym because after I get off work, I have to volunteer at 6:45 and so going to the gym wouldn't really give me enough time to eat. Stupid cake. I mean, technically I have like 500 calories left, but I really wanted to stay on the low side of things today. Blah. I guess the only solace i have is knowing I 'm going to the gym tomorrow.

Today is a little better than yesterday. I am noticing that I'm shrinking and I do look like a totally different person, i'm just not good enough for me yet. Soon enough I'll be there though. I have on shorts today that I hadn't worn since high school so that is uber exciting! Soon enough these may be too big and then all hell will break lose. just kidding, but it sounded kinda fun.

I'm starting to wonder what the hell I'm going to look like at 180. I'm nervous! I've never been that small before and right now I feel kinda skinny but -40 more lbs, I'm afraid I'm gonna be like a stick! I probably won't, but it still just makes me nervous. so close, so close.

My computer won't be fixed until Monday but they said that the chip or the "motherboard" isn't fried so that's good. I can't wait to have my baby back! And, I just found some extra money i didn't know I had (its only $15) and that excited me! Yay. Anywho, today is boring and I'm honestly just not in the mood to get in touch with my emotional side and sit here all glasssy-eyed at the computer so, I'll try to be back later. Happy Cinco de Cuatro!!!