Why do ppl have to f*** with my workout?! So I get in the gym and after I finish stretching I decided I wanted to use the Arc Trainer with the arm thingys so I waited behind the machine while the girl finished. She only had like 2 minutes left so I had no problem waiting. Well, as soon as she finishes wiping off the machine, some girl tries to swoop in and take the machine! I said to her - as politely as possible - "I'm sorry but I was already waiting for this one." I wasn't rude! Then she just kinda kept power walking and kinda looked at me with that "what nerve?!" face. I mean, I wasn't rude, I just said I had already been waiting. So starting my workout I was already slightly agitated. Then I felt kinda bad like "well, what if she had been waiting too and I just kicked her off?!", but if she were really had a clear intent of using that machine, she woulda been waiting behind her like I was. THEN 20 minutes into my workout, this lady comes behind me and taps me on the shoulder and was like "how much longer do you have left?". Now, smart a$$ Denita was thinking, "don't you see the timer dummy?!" But pseudo-polite Denita said "Oh, I only have 25 minutes left" and she said, "only 25 minutes?!" and I said, "yea". So then she huffed and puffed on her merry way. Now, there were three other machines next to me not in use, and while both of the arm thingy ones were in use, she didn't ask the other girl when she'd be done (the other girl, by the way, was the one I initially "kicked" off). I really wasn't trying to be rude or short with these people, but DAMN if you see me waiting behind the machine, clearly I'm waiting to use it and if you wanna know how much time I have left, look at my stinkin timer! (which always counts down by the way), and lastly, DON'T INTERRUPT MY WORKOUT FOR YOUR STINKIN HOOPLA! IT'S NEVER AS IMPORTANT AS MY CALORIE BURN!! OK, I'm glad I let that out.

Other than that, the workout was...alright. I was kinda out of it by the last 10 minutes on the Arc Trainer and I was just ready to be done. Then after my Arcy I did my 20 min tready workout which was OK. It's nice to know that I'm able to pick up my pace from 5.2 to about 5.4 now. I hope tomorrow's run is good. My lungs are in better shape than yesterday so hopefully it will be a good one. Thanks for the advice Robin on doing my runs first so I have more energy!

Now it's time to go home and wait for Work Out to come on. I hope these damn Sky Lab people lost some stinkin weight. I wish I woulda had a Sky Lab! And I really hope they memorialize Doug better than they did in the last episode. I'll probably cry regardless just because I'm a big baby.

Edited to add: Trish & Corrine: I think I want to do the hide the scale challenge! I'm not going to weigh tomorrow, I'll weigh Thursday (weigh-in day) and then hide it until the next weigh-in day! Oh, this is going to be realllllly difficult. I must weight at least twice a day.

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Can I just say I am so ready to be out of the 200s? This AM I was 219.6 and I am just so antsy to be done with the 200s!! I know that it's only 20 more lbs, but 20 lbs takes forever to just go away! I know, I know, I'm being impatient, but now that these goals are so stinkin close, I wish I could just be there already!!!

OK, enough of that senseless rant. My run yesterday was kinda poohy. My chest and my breathing was all outta whack from the weekend so I my 3.1 was 38:15, and cumulatively I had 3.56 miles in 45 minutes. Really, it's not bad at all because I still ran the first 15 minutes straight. Today is my low impact cardio day so hopefully by giving my chest a breather tomorrow's run will be fantastic.

I have been so hungry today and I just can't shake it! I tried to eat a little extra for lunch, but for some reason I'm just in the mood to eat! I can't wait for my Fiber One bar at 5.

So now that I'm getting smaller, I'm so ready to start flirting/dating! Not really for any relationship or anything, just for fun! I feel a lot more confident and I wanna see if I can work it! Honestly though, even though I look smaller, I still feel like I won't be "date-able" until I'm at 180. Blah, I know it's all mental. I need to be "good enough" at 219, but for some reason I'm just not quite there yet. It's just like I've been "in hiding" for so long "transitioning" my body that I'm ready to give it a go. And I know that people being attracted to me shouldn't have to deal with my body or what I look like ,but I'm smart enough to know that it does have something to do with it. Blah. I'm still anti-commitment though.

Anywho, so I guess i gotta finish working. Later gators!!!