I was so excited I had to run and blog this but I'm OFFICIALLY DOWN EIGHTY (80) POUNDS!!! This is so exciting! I'm only 20 ls away from 100! I can't believe how close it is! I'm so excited. Well, I stepped on the scale three times in a row (which = 1 time, thank you) and I got 216.0, 215.0, 215.0, but I'm rolling with 216.0 so I can have some wiggle room for Thursday's weigh-in. But I'm so freakin excited! That's a huge feat! That means I've lost thirty additional pounds since i lost fifty. That means I've lost forty pounds twice. Feats like this continue to prove to me that I am more powerful than I ever allowed myself to believe I was. I never used to think I was good enough for success but losing eighty pounds makes me realize that I am good enough for success and anything else! What a great way to start my Saturday. I was thinking about ordering Chinese Food today, but I don't think I'm going to because 1)I suck at portioning Chinese food, 2)It doesn't make me feel full, 3)I'm not craving it bad enough! So yea, somehow I'm going to celebrate this amazing feat today, even if I am on duty. I'm so happy! Yay!!!

the picture is of me last summer at my mom's house before I got to school. I am looking at old pictures of me today...am I the same person?!

yea, I'm vain. I posted a thread. Sh*t, mama's just proud!



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5:03pm

Can I just say that I am SO FREAKIN BORED?!?! I mean, sure, there are things I could be doing but they sure as hell aren't exciting! I mean, I wanna have a party today and celebrate and $h!t but unfortunately I'm all alone at school. I did my 45 min run for the first time in ages today and it wasn't so bad. I did 3.59 miles in 45 mins, and finished 3.1 in 38:15. I'm not too upset because 1)I hadn't done my run in like 3 weeks and 2)I ran for the most part at 5.5 instead of 5.3 so I can handle that. I'm so excited for my race! My family is going to be there which will be awesome so I want to make sure I'm in great shape for that! I think that 210 would be a good goal for the race but in my mind I'd rather be 208. We'll see. I know I have my 3 cheat days but I'm trying to be very wise about when i use them. I really want to just be in the best shape I can be in for this stinkin race. I want to do awesome! Oh, and I want a t-shirt . I'll feel so official with a 5K t-shirt!!! Can you tell how bored I am? I'm excited about a stinkin race? I have to get a cute runner's outfit for it too! I want to make a t-shirt or something but I don't konw if 1)that's corny and 2)I can think of anything to put on it! I'm sure I could think of somthing. I'm so pumped.

Every time i keep looking at my picture for the day, I remember that when I took it, I thought I was sooooooooo cute! I was like "OK DIVA!" But now, I'm like "eeeeesh!" I kinda miss my red hair though! Maybe when I get to -100 I'll get my hair professionally dyed red with some weave or something. I still have no idea what my big "prize" will be when I get to -100. When I get to -90, I'm going to freak out because -100 will only be TEN POUNDS AWAY! I've got plenty of time to worry about all that madness though. I know ideally I'd like to get a new wardrobe, but with the finances that will be kinda hard. I'd like to get a boob lift but that too, is out of bounds. Whatever I decide to do, it's going to be BIG! -100 is a big deal. Sh*t, the day I get under 200 lbs I'll probably cry my eyes out. I'm taking a personal day just so I can stand on the scale all day. lol OK, enough weight talk.

Anywho, I guess I should shower or something considering I've been sitting in my workout clothes for like 3 hours. Pretty disgusting. I can smell myself.