So it looks like I may have my first off day recorded! lol Last night I just could not control my eating! I was so anxious to not eat that it made me want to eat! Oh well, one down, two more to go! lol and I think today might be my second day down. lol Oh well, you'll have that.

So, this morning started on a very eery note. So this AM I was having a dream about something really weird that I"m not going to get into (in a nut shell, my dad was my pimp) well, anywho, at some point my brothers and I were running out to this car that was filled with "bad guys" (not sure who they were) but my one brother, Desmond, poured gas on the car and lit a match. Well, as the car drove off, my younger brother, Derrick, jumped in the back seat and I tried to yell to him "get out of that car!" but then Desmond said, "Derrick always wanted to die like that, just let him go" and I was kinda dumbfounded by that and the next I look the car explodes.

Well, I when I wake up, I'm checking my facebook from my phone just to see if anything happened and I get a message from my brother pretty much telling me he feels like sh!t, he feels abandoned by everyone in the family but me, he feels abandoned by God, nothing is going right in his life and he just needs strength, and it was like my dream became personified in an instant. And the crazy part about my dream was how my brother didn't try to save him when he jumped in the burning car. He just kinda said, "just let him go." The dream and it's relevance to the real world just creeped me out. I am going down there today and I'm going to try to persuade my brother to come stay with me for a few days just to take a breather from his situation. I really hope he takes me up on it.

I was going to do my first outdoor run today but it's lookin like rain and I'd be PISSED if I got rained on. Oh well, there's always tomorrow or some other day. The gym is closed today because of Memorial Day so I guess no gym for me.

Last night I watched this special on the Jesus Network (aka TBN) and, to describe this program in a nutshell, the program discussed how George W. Bush has used prayer and his faith to become an incredible leader and that his moral and ethical values will establish him as one of our greatest leaders. Additionally, they discussed how "radicals" are attempting to devalue our society and school system by taking faith out of our schools and society. I won't get into my personal views about this subject, but I'll just say that it was interesting to hear this perspective. I guess it's good to try to learn another viewpoint, even if it differs from your own. I'm a firm believer that ignorance breeds intelligence, so I revel in my own ignorance so I can learn more and be the most powerful and knowledgeable person I can be.

Alright, enough "me" today. Gotta get dressed and all that hoopla! Later!!!



Regardless of my personal convictions, I support and honor the troops who have fought for our country - past or present - and the sacrifices they have made for us