Um...my three bad days are already gone! Man, these past few days have been rough. I'm having serious self-esteem issues. I feel like I'm starting to realize my real reasons for losing weight and I need to refocus my efforts ASAP before I find myself in a downward spiral.

Denita, what are the real reasons you decided to lose weight?!
So I would be more attractive and have an easier time dating

Denita, how much success have you had in this?
Not much.

So, how does that make you feel?
fat and looking for greasy foods to make me "feel" better

yea, so I need to focus on my mental health and not so much the [excuse my bluntness] sexual health.

So Memorial Day was uber boring. I went down to my brothers and didn't really do anything. I ate like crap, drank like crap, and yea. I let my brother borrow my car for the week so he wouldn't have to worry about getting back and forth to work. I don't know if that was a good idea but I'm just having faith that it is.

One thing I am learning about myself is that I am SO darn giving. One of my really good friends has been struggling financially and doesn't really have food so whenever I go grocery shopping or have a program with food, I always save as much as I can and give whatever extra I have so she can have food. She doesn't ask, but I know she appreciates it. I've gotten this from my mom because she is ALWAYS trying to give what she can regardless of how much money she has. I really admire her for that and I want to continue to be like her.

I guess even though I'm single as all hell, life isn't so bad. I really need to buckle down for my damn race! I'm such a procrastinator. Blah. I'm sure I'll be fine.

One funny thing though is when I was at my brother's school, I was checking CK and my brother kept looking over my shoulder to see what everyone commented on my blog, and he says, "I wish I was a celebrity like you." lol It made me giggle.

Anywho, I gotta go cuss out Financial Aid and eat lunch. Later!!!