7:15pm
I finally went back to the gym and made sure I pushed it today! I did 60 mins on the Arc Trainer, and did 20 minutes on the treadmill (5min @ 4.0, 8.5 min @5.5, 1.5min @6.0, 5 min @ 3.5) Nice to know I haven't completely lost it! Tomorrow I am working out in the AM because the afternoon crowd was buggin me today. I just like getting up early and getting it out of the way. Then, I think I am going to run in the afternoon. I am going to be SO tired tomorrow night though during rounds (yep, I'm on duty again). Oh well, at least I can sleep in Saturday! I can't believe the 5K is three weeks away! Although I'm not in the Olympic shape I thought I'd be in (joking), I don't think it will be so bad! I'm just so excited for it. It will be a HUGE accomplishment for me!

Today at work, one of the directors came up to me and said, "wow, you have really lost a lot of weight!" It was really random because I see her every day and it was just so random. I guess that's what i needed on a really bloated day.

So, I think I'm back in business. I'm feeling much better and not sweating if I"m still single for the time being. Tonight's dinner is a turkey burger with bacon I can't wait!

Have a great night my lovelies!!!

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I"m seriously back on track. And I'm back for different reasons. I tell you, in the past few days I have learned a lot about myself and it feels good to be more tuned in with myself!

Here are a few of the things I learned:

1) I give far more to others than I give to myself.

2) I allowed myself to gain 80lbs because I hated myself and felt disgusting and had nothing else to turn to but food.

3) When I eat like crap, it's because I feel unattractive and unworthy

4) Every day further I allow myself to get off track, I increase the likelihood i will stay off track

5)The "why not?" mentality is dangerous and it doesn't make me think out my actions.

6) I need to lose weight for my health and NOT because I want others to find me attractive.

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I guess these past few days have put things into perspective for me. I really need to get back on track again and re-take this one day at a time. That's really the only way to go! My face looks (to me) uber bloated but I am going to take this one step, one meal, one choice at a time and get my health together. I need to stop thinking I need someone else to validate me. I need to validate myself. Oh epiphanies, how I thee!

Anywho, just needed to get that out.