DBRAZIEL's Jun 2007 CalorieKing Blog
Friday, June 15th 2007
My New Running Shoes!
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Running!!! Trish & Robyn, this morning I couldn't stop thinking about you! I did my second outdoor run today and it kicked ASSSSSSSSSS!!!
I RAN THE ENTIRE 3.2 MILES WITHOUT STOPPING - OUTSIDE!!!!!
Ok, so this AM, I just couldn't take my butt back to sleep and it was like 8:30 (i didn't have to be at work until 11) so I was just like, there's no use in just LAYING here, get up and run! So after a few sterm-talking-to's with myself, i decided to ...
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the pic is of me over the weekend in my purrty freakum dress!!
things are ACTUALLY improving over yonder!

I kinda accidentally overslept last night after a long convo that turned out to be GREAT but it was just the sleep i needed! I went to my second class so I wouldn't be TOO far out of the loop so that was cool. I feel really bad that I missed my class this morning but dammit I was just so freakin sleepy. Anywho, i weighed this morning and I was
211.2 somehow!! I had a pretty cr...
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Worn thin...
I'm so worn out. I feel like i have been "supporting" people and trying to do things for friends & family and I'm just tired. A friend of mine who's been jobless for almost three months here at school and - while I don't mind it because I know she needs it - it's just aggravating because I'm all she has and I just feel like she ALWAYS needs something. And unfortunately, I'm all she has - her family doesn't really financially support her - so I really try to do eve...
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It's another blah day. Last night there was hella family drama that really put me in a deep funk and on top of feeling incredibly obese, unattractive, and like a complete loser things haven't been so great. I dunno, I guess I'm just doing a lot of self-loathing and repeating to myself how fat I am today. I am going to the gym today which will hopefully be the therapy I need. I have so much to write and just don't feel like writing. This feeling is so annoying. I'm so annoyed. Period.
I'm just not feeling well mentally. My self-esteem took a nose dive this weekend and I'm really struggling to pick myself back up. I
want to get on track but fat Denita is telling me "i'm not worth it anymore." I have to to face fat Denita head on. I just ignore her and pray that she goes away and she just won't. She continues to keep me down and she continues to remind me of how much I have hated myself and in the past and how I will continue to. She reminds me that I am not good en...
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