Hey Ya'll!! Remember me?! Gosh it's been forever since I've blogged/been on CK! It's been an...interesting month. I kinda had a Britney Spears moment and started eating Taco Bell and cheetos and donuts like my life depended on it. A LOT has happened in the past month. Some good, some not so good. I definitely can say I learned a lot in the month that I went COMPLETELY over the deep end.

I actually just got back from vacation a couple of days ago in VA and that was an amazing trip. There was far too much McD's and booze involved, but it was a great trip nonetheless and I had a blast. Maybe one of these days I'll actually write more or post some pictures. I've got A LOT to do!

I almost got arrested before I left for driving with a suspended license (I didn't get arrested though. The cop was really nice). Oddly, i didn't even know it was suspended so you can imagine how freaked out I was. I had a THREE HOUR drive back to school when I got back on that license so I was uber nervous (and driving uber slow)

I actually had been blogging elsewhere for a little bit until I abandoned blogging altogether for a while but I realize the IMPORTANCE of blogging. So, I think I am going to blog both here and on my blogger blog (same site as Corrine's). The reason I have been blogging in two places is because i have found myself blogging a lot about my personal relationships (i.e. Lauren ) and so I'm trying to find the right balance for all of that.

On the topic of Lauren and blogging, I've found that blogging is really about being honest with yourself and being true to what you go through. As I've blogged about Lauren on CK, I've felt a certain level of dishonesty to myself and to those who actually do read my blog. So, I guess in my "Welcome Back" blog to myself and to whomever still decides to read this, I should take this opportunity to be honest and say that Lauren is my girlfriend. It's scary, but incredibly liberating to just be honest about my true self. I don't feel like I should have to hide behind this facade of being straight because I fear that people will judge me or look at me differently based on their beliefs. However, I am an adult and I need to be OK with who I love and who I date. Sometimes I have felt like because a lot of people have looked up to me that I was almost forced to pretend to be something I'm not but I guess I wouldn't be being honest if I continued to be a phony. Regardless of who I date, I'm still the same person. Hopefully no one's opinions of me will change.

Lauren and I, however, are amazing and I am SO happy. She has decided to try to get healthy with me and has been encouraging me to get back on track, because being healthy is what makes me happy. I guess you can say I've gained those love pounds lol.

Anywho, I am all sorts of ready to be healthy again. I miss that feeling after a great workout. I REALLY miss running. I am so excited to get my body back into shape and to be a healthy, happy person. I've got just about everything I need and it's time that I let my body look the way I feel. I'm ready to let go of a lot of my stress, my bad vices (i.e. smoking & drinking) and live a clear, healthy, fruitful, driven life. I have so much to look forward to and I am not about to let a bad month ruin the possibilities for the rest of my life.

I can't wait to re-check up on everyone and all that jazz! I've missed you guys! All of your PMs really encouraged me to get my big butt back onto CK and make my health my focus again. So I am taking this one day at a time, one food choice at a time - just like when I started.