DBRAZIEL's Jan 2008 CalorieKing Blog
Tuesday, January 22nd 2008
I'm just really annoyed today. The more and more I try to be more positive and try to "get back on tracK" - whatever that means at this point - I feel myself becoming more and more withdrawn and in dire need of change. I want to leave this school so bad. I really wish I weren't a senior because it would make the prospect of transferring so much easier. I just want to be done with school but I do NOT want to be here anymore. I feel like I'm just going through the motions right now and ...Guess who went to the gym today?!?!?!
Monday, January 14th 2008
Yep. I'm talking about me. I'm really proud of myself. It made me realize how much I miss running. So, yea, I had a shooty lunch, but I still went. Yea. I did it. Tomorrow I go to counselling and I'm excited/nervous about that. I'm really trying to get myself together. I'm scared of moving forward, but i know to truly be happy I need to get healthy and I need to work on my mental state of mind. I feel better today though. I just hope that everything continues to go well and everything falls in...Friday, January 11th 2008
Just because I had a whopper for lunch does NOT mean I can't get on track! I am determined that I WILL go to the gym, regardless of that lunch. Just because I had a crappy lunch doesn't mean I have to have a crappy rest of the day. I'm nervous about going to the gym but I know it will be a good, even if I've got cold lung or whatever ailment that may affect me. Anywho, let's just hope I actually go to the gym and I don't make up an excuse for not going! I've really been having some strong urges ...In need of some blog therapy
Thursday, January 10th 2008
I want to get myself together so badly. Sometimes, I don't understand why I continue to hurt myself and hold myself back from being what I'm capable of. The other day, my best friend asked me a question that I've been asking myself daily, "Could you really quit drinking just all of a sudden?" At first, I said, "yes." Then I thought, and I realized the answer in reality is "No." If I'm around alcohol, I want some. And I don't want just one, I want at least 4. And i...