DBRAZIEL's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Jan 22 2008
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I'm just really annoyed today. The more and more I try to be more positive and try to "get back on tracK" - whatever that means at this point - I feel myself becoming more and more withdrawn and in dire need of change. I want to leave this school so bad. I really wish I weren't a senior because it would make the prospect of transferring so much easier. I just want to be done with school but I do NOT want to be here anymore. I feel like I'm just going through the motions right now and I just need some sense of fulfillment that it seems the harder I look for it, it seems that much further. I'm just not happy right now in this place. I need some kind of change, some kind of something to get me out of this hole I'm in. I miss the old Denita and it feels like it's damn near impossible to find her here. Blah. I just don't know what to do right now.
4 comments so far.
4.
a decade ago
Denita, where are you, girl??? Hope you're okay...
:heart1:
:kiss:
Come back when you're able. Just wanted you to know you're missed.
by TESSINTEXAS
3.
a decade ago
You see that AFTER pic sitting to the right, now look at your before picture, now get back on the wagon.
by JAXS
2.
a decade ago
I am with you. Kind of lost out there in la la land. (getting fatter)
:$ Have a great day! 
:kiss:
by MOM22SONZ
1.
a decade ago
What would make you feel fulfilled? Do you have anything specific in mind or is it just this nagging vague feeling? Maybe you could explore that a little more and try to find the simplist way to do it until you graduate. If you absolutely MUST get out NOW...can you take a semester off? I know that can screw with financial aid/loans, etc once you've already started a semester but maybe it's worth looking into. Or maybe drop a class or 2. Do you feel overwhelmed with the light at the end of the tunnel (graduation)? I know that whenever I have an end in sight I have moments of panic. They always say that we can never return to a person we were in the past due to everything that has happened to us since we were that person. But, the person you become will be a new and improved version of your past you. Maybe you could look at it that way too! Keep your chin up girl!
by JUSTCALLMECOLEY