DBRAZIEL's CalorieKing Blog
Thursday, June 14th 2007
the pic is of me over the weekend in my purrty freakum dress!!
things are ACTUALLY improving over yonder!
I kinda accidentally overslept last night after a long convo that turned out to be GREAT but it was just the sleep i needed! I went to my second class so I wouldn't be TOO far out of the loop so that was cool. I feel really bad that I missed my class this morning but dammit I was just so freakin sleepy. Anywho, i weighed this morning and I was 211.2 somehow!! I had a pretty cr...
Wednesday, June 13th 2007
Worn thin...I'm so worn out. I feel like i have been "supporting" people and trying to do things for friends & family and I'm just tired. A friend of mine who's been jobless for almost three months here at school and - while I don't mind it because I know she needs it - it's just aggravating because I'm all she has and I just feel like she ALWAYS needs something. And unfortunately, I'm all she has - her family doesn't really financially support her - so I really try to do eve...
Tuesday, June 12th 2007
It's another blah day. Last night there was hella family drama that really put me in a deep funk and on top of feeling incredibly obese, unattractive, and like a complete loser things haven't been so great. I dunno, I guess I'm just doing a lot of self-loathing and repeating to myself how fat I am today. I am going to the gym today which will hopefully be the therapy I need. I have so much to write and just don't feel like writing. This feeling is so annoying. I'm so annoyed. Period.Monday, June 11th 2007
I'm just not feeling well mentally. My self-esteem took a nose dive this weekend and I'm really struggling to pick myself back up. I want to get on track but fat Denita is telling me "i'm not worth it anymore." I have to to face fat Denita head on. I just ignore her and pray that she goes away and she just won't. She continues to keep me down and she continues to remind me of how much I have hated myself and in the past and how I will continue to. She reminds me that I am not good en...Friday, June 8th 2007
12:18pmSo I've been doing some research on transitioning from treadmill running to outdoor running and in a nut shell, i feel like I'm screwed. I waited too long to get "serious" about training for this race and now it's two weeks away and I've only "ran" outside once and I honestly am petrified to do it again. Today it's way too humid to run outside so it's not happening today but I KNOW I need to start getting outside. I am so scared that my 5K is going to SUCK and I'm...