DBRAZIEL's CalorieKing Blog
I'm not sure if this is a good thing?
Thursday, February 15th 2007
So yesterday I decided I need to chill on the weight loss. I don't know what exactly "chilling" entails, but I need to stop stressing about the numbers on the scale and being prettier and smaller for other people and really just focus on myself. I'd been trying so hard to get smaller to be more attractive & get more attention, but the reality of the situation is that if I don't feel it for myself then all of the work doesn't matter. So I need to just take a step back from being &...
So sick...
Wednesday, February 14th 2007
a little betterI kinda got sick of the funk and took Miriam's advice ( :hi
and put on my fat clothes. I put on my size 22 capris from last summer and wow, those were like a story from Subway. I can't believe they used to fit me! Anywho, I went and did some makeup and managed to look...well...pretty! Here's a new pic which will also be my profile pic. I guess I mean, I dunno, life isn't so bad. I'll be OK, PROMISE! Tomorrow will be much better, regardless of what the scale says. Thanks ev...
Binge Devil
Tuesday, February 13th 2007
It doesn't even feel like a "binge" anymore. It's just "why not?" eating. I don't get it. It's like, you'd think that I'd have the willpower to stop eating after my "late night snack"but no, everything looks good. I feel so self conscious about the scale. My scale has been so mean to me lately, and it's like I worked so hard and then the scale is being a b*tch to me. So, I just say f*ck it, the scale isn't going to show me good news, so why should i even care? I...It feels like it's been forever
Monday, February 12th 2007
Day 38 (?) of 142Can I just say that my scale is about to go out the window? The scale is still at 239. Except today it was 239.8 (thank GOD it wasn't 240). OK, sure Saturday was a doozy, but I also worked out Friday & Saturday. Yesterday, I virtually OD'ed on water so I could get all the fast food & alcohol out of my system, but I did NOT think it would be stuck at 239 like it is. I mean, maybe I should be happy that the scale isn't in the 240s but I just don't get it. I hate to ...
Boo Boo McGoo
Friday, February 9th 2007
day 34 of 142So, last night's quasi-binge showed on the scale this AM. 239.4 Gross! Today, while I was on a mini-grocery trip, I had a long talk with myself about why "cheating" is counterproductive and that i have goals to look forward to and that - while moderation is good - drinking and other things are not good for me. I think I did a pretty good job of talking myself out of sabotaging myself. I actually had to laugh at myself, because I sounded pretty convincing!
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