Well...this crazy ride continues! And sometimes I feel like I'm just hangin on for dear life!! It's been a week of milestones in my journey. I've officially lost 40 pounds!! Huge deal for me!! I'd already lost 17 before joining CK and have lost 23 since joining in May. And tonight I finished Week 4 of the c25k program! Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that I'd be jogging! In fact, I was one of those people who, when they drove past someone else jogging, would shake my head in sympathy for the poor soul who was obviously in a delusional state of mind to think that jogging was a good thing! And now here I am in that delusional state myself and LOVING it!!! However, I've also "shrunk" out of some of my favorite clothes, and while this is also a VERY good thing, for some reason I'm finding it a little emotionally distressing. Take this morning for instance, I was getting ready for work and decided that I was going to wear a pair of dressy capris that I'd worn last August to my son's wedding and then again this past May to my dad's wedding. I put them on and they were too big! Now yes, this is a good thing - I'm so thankful that I'm not as large as I used to be when they fit, but it also made a part of me very sad because I'd worn those capris at two really special occasions. Sentimental seperation anxiety??? I don't know. But what could I do except take a good long last look at my smaller self in those big pants, sigh, take them off, fold them up and put them in the "give away" bag along with the other clothes which no longer fit that I'd taken out of my closet this past weekend.
I've been struggling emotionally this past week. Feeling a little down, blah, tired and I've had to really push myself to go out and exercise. It doesn't help that the weather here has been really crappy...including 4 1/2 inches of rain over the weekend! But I keep reminding myself how much better I feel after I've been active. I keep telling myself that this is all part of the journey. There will be ups and downs, highs and lows and I'm just going to have to deal with it and go on. This is my journey, my ride. I'm on it for life whether I'm struggling to climb the next hill or coasting down on the other side. I will succeed. I'm worth it!