I went to the gym at about 9 or 9:30 yesterday morning and didn't leave till about 12:30. I totally worked my tale off. I feel so good today. I weighed myself the first time since I came back from vacation and I've lost some more pounds. I'm down to 248. It's coming off a little bit at a time and I'm so glad to see results, I don't care how long it takes. It's just fun to see the work pay off, even though I dread the scale, it never lies to me. It is what it is.

One day I'm going to look in the mirror and love myself again and not feel disappointment and resentment. I can't wait. Next year at this time I'm going to be on my bike again. I can't wait. I can't wait to wear what I want because it fits and I won't have to automatically head for the "women's" section because nothing else works. I can't wait to see what I look like, or see how I feel.

I'm so excited!