Sos, after my rockin’ Monday night I've had one of the crappiest weeks EVER!!!!
I was so out of it Tuesday morning after the late night/ euphoria of a concert so I get home just wanting to sleep and my b/f comes over at 830 and decides to tell me that he thinks we should see other people.
Just like that, and when I'm so shocked I don't really know what to say (He asks if I want to talk about it I say ... um no not right now) He tells me well I still want to be friends (barff) and you have my number if you want to give me a call. I'm all like WTF??? I can’t really comprehend it at this time so I walk back up to the couch and am just sitting there trying to gather my thoughts and I realize I can’t figure anything out so I call my best friend and just lose it on the phone (aka crying) so she comes over and seeing as I never really got any answers out of him as to why (seeing as I was basically a mute) she decides she’s going to call him to at least get an idea. The number one reason out of his mouth was that we don’t have the same interests (WHAT) like hiking and camping (WWWHHHHATTTTT!!!!!!!!) (Seriously it’s not like I was into these things when we started dating 2 YEARS AGO!! So this can’t be news to him)
And then one of his other reasons was some crap about how I cut him off from the sexy side for a bit (it was getting kinda monotonous so I decided to take a break to see where I thought I was with that part of the relationship) and how that was rally hurting his feelings. (Again barff, seriously I wasn’t going to keep it up if he was the only one enjoying it)
And lastly he just wasn’t sure if he could find it in himself to give anything more to the relationship (Argh it also turns out he was comparing our relationship to that of his married friends and married sister and found ours lacking, the thing with this boy is HE IS AN UNEMOTIONAL WRECK!!! So what am I supposed to push for emotions out of him to “further” this relationship? Wouldn’t that just make it worse??)
To sum it up it sucked. BIG TIME. I was super unimpressed and unhappy. (ie: getting NO sleep what so ever .. I am happy to report however that I didn’t binge even though my friends’ mom offered to send over some cake for me)
Also upon further reflection, I’m not really going to miss him as a boyfriend. I’m going to miss him as a friend, and going to miss having a boyfriend in my life, but him as a boyfriend … not so much. I had to look REALLY hard at it, but I realize that I still haven’t forgiven him for some he pulled 2 months ago and so … I was also unhappy in the relationship (hence the cutting off of sexy time) So this might be for the best I’m still sad.
And yeah I don’t really have much else to say, it sucks but, I think I’m going to be o.k. I can feel the appetite coming back already (which is slightly dangerous) Anyways this feel better to get things off my chest.
Hope ever one has a good weekend!!
I’m going to finally get to ride my bike!!