HAPPYJO's CalorieKing blog
Wednesday, Apr 18 2007 - O.k. let's do a little catching up here.
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So, o.k. I havent spoken to the now ex since it happened. And he has called, and I am really trying not to call him back. Also he's calling my friends and asking them what he should do, how he can fix this. Well ... I have to say I'm getting a kind of sick pleasure from knowing he's you know ... feeling really bad. Is that wrong?? I've never really been in this position before I figure high school relationships dont count ... well they werent on this level for me anyways. I've told my friends to just tell him I'm not going to talk to him for awhile ... I'm worried about what I'll say and what I'll let him do to me. (Mentally not like physically or anything)
So my ladies have been keeping me busy which is VERY nice. I got my Tarot cards read (even the Tarot guy knew I hadnt been happy in this relationship ... which is good, but that it's not over... which is not so good) (the Tarot guy also said that this would be one of my worst relationships so things can only go up from here, yes!) and walking was a big part of my weekend, along with some swimming and lots of talking.
I realize I miss him, not as a boyfriend but as my best friend and that someday I will want to be friends with him again. Just not now, cause he did a really crappy thing and I have to get over that. (I know this is kinda like what I said before but still working it out)
Hhmm so on a plus note Ive been losing lbs thanks to him. So thats nice. And my parents have also come home which is double nice (I dont have to worry about the dog) and I had dinner with a friend that I hadnt seen in 3 or so years and were going to keep meeting up monthly so that was triple nice. I got out ridding my bike yesterday which was quadruple nice. AND I joined a slow-pitch team which is TOTALLY what ever 5 times as nice is!!!! Im REALLY excited about the slow-pitch. I used to play softball hardcore, but had to stop because I wrecked my back. So to get back into it slowly will be VERY fulfilling.
And yes, it is Il Divo tonight so at the very least Ill get to hear some soothing music.
And this weekend was supposed to be our 2 year romantic getaway in the mountains, (I had already booked the family cabin) but seeing as thats been kyboshed my friend is going out there with me and its going to be a girls on the prowl weekend instead (I thought it would be better than moping around the house) With some hot springs and hopefully hot boys.
Alright I think that pretty much catches me up.
So my ladies have been keeping me busy which is VERY nice. I got my Tarot cards read (even the Tarot guy knew I hadnt been happy in this relationship ... which is good, but that it's not over... which is not so good) (the Tarot guy also said that this would be one of my worst relationships so things can only go up from here, yes!) and walking was a big part of my weekend, along with some swimming and lots of talking.
I realize I miss him, not as a boyfriend but as my best friend and that someday I will want to be friends with him again. Just not now, cause he did a really crappy thing and I have to get over that. (I know this is kinda like what I said before but still working it out)
Hhmm so on a plus note Ive been losing lbs thanks to him. So thats nice. And my parents have also come home which is double nice (I dont have to worry about the dog) and I had dinner with a friend that I hadnt seen in 3 or so years and were going to keep meeting up monthly so that was triple nice. I got out ridding my bike yesterday which was quadruple nice. AND I joined a slow-pitch team which is TOTALLY what ever 5 times as nice is!!!! Im REALLY excited about the slow-pitch. I used to play softball hardcore, but had to stop because I wrecked my back. So to get back into it slowly will be VERY fulfilling.
And yes, it is Il Divo tonight so at the very least Ill get to hear some soothing music.
And this weekend was supposed to be our 2 year romantic getaway in the mountains, (I had already booked the family cabin) but seeing as thats been kyboshed my friend is going out there with me and its going to be a girls on the prowl weekend instead (I thought it would be better than moping around the house) With some hot springs and hopefully hot boys.
Alright I think that pretty much catches me up.
3 comments so far.
3.
a decade ago
I did own that brownie. I says to the brownie "yo. I don't need you. but you need me."
by SPACELACE
2.
a decade ago
I htink it is fine that you don't want to talk to him right now. And I think it's double fine that you are getting sick pleasure from his pain...
:evil: I would do the same things. It is so awesome that you have such great friends in your life and this weekend souds like a blast! Hopefully it won't be snowing. 
:)
by SPACELACE
1.
a decade ago
Wow...sorry I wasn't caught up on all of this (I'm a bad CK'er!) First, I think if you were cutting him off from affection, that's a good sign that something was going on in your head that you just hadn't listened to yet. Second, Rick and I broke up a year ago, after 3.5 yrs. And it was basically my first longish relationship (over like 6 mo), and it was hard for me to lose my best friend. But, what I've gained has been realizing that I had this AMAZING social group around me, but had lost myself in him, and in my own unhappiness surrounding us, that I didn't realize their spectacularness. You seem to be really positive. Focus on that. Adjusting to being single is difficult, but it's such a great learning experience. I'm glad for all your recent "nices". And, can I just say, that it's pretty douchey for him to just come over and break it off, like it was just on his list of things to get done that day. **Just my 2 cents, babe!** (((hugs)))
by RENEERRL