HAPPYJO's CalorieKing blog
Thursday, Apr 26 2007 - **Sigh**
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Today is not a good day, well really who am I kidding this week hasnt been a really good week.
Its pity party central over hizzere.
I'm fighting with myself over trying not to talk to the ex, I know it would start off o.k., me making fun of his sport teams and the like. But then it would get all weird because apparently he wants to explain and talk about some stuff that I don't want to hear. And I know I would get all yell-ey and stressed out and possibly cry which is not something I want to have happen right now. But on the other hand if I can get it dealt with and out of my mind then I might feel better.
I've noticed myself going through some cycles, at first I was REALLY sad that this had to happen, then I was REALLY mad at him for being such a selfish bastard, now I'm just wishy washy and confused, I don't know what to feel or think I'm on edge a lot and I'm never happy when I don't know how to attack a situation.
Urgh things would of been so much better had we not been like best buds first.
So the fact that I've been so torn about this is making me want to nosh really hard core on bad things. Like the brownie and ice cream I had yesterday.
And feeling like this is also making me extremely lethargic. So I'm not going to the gym.
Oh gosh this whole blog has been me being too bad.
Umm, it's nice here today so I'm wearing flip flops which is always good for me!!
And I get to get some new glasses on Sat. so thats fun too!!
Yay.
Its pity party central over hizzere.
I'm fighting with myself over trying not to talk to the ex, I know it would start off o.k., me making fun of his sport teams and the like. But then it would get all weird because apparently he wants to explain and talk about some stuff that I don't want to hear. And I know I would get all yell-ey and stressed out and possibly cry which is not something I want to have happen right now. But on the other hand if I can get it dealt with and out of my mind then I might feel better.
I've noticed myself going through some cycles, at first I was REALLY sad that this had to happen, then I was REALLY mad at him for being such a selfish bastard, now I'm just wishy washy and confused, I don't know what to feel or think I'm on edge a lot and I'm never happy when I don't know how to attack a situation.
Urgh things would of been so much better had we not been like best buds first.
So the fact that I've been so torn about this is making me want to nosh really hard core on bad things. Like the brownie and ice cream I had yesterday.
And feeling like this is also making me extremely lethargic. So I'm not going to the gym.
Oh gosh this whole blog has been me being too bad.
Umm, it's nice here today so I'm wearing flip flops which is always good for me!!
And I get to get some new glasses on Sat. so thats fun too!!
Yay.
2 comments so far.
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a decade ago
Oh honey... I 'm sorry I didn't read this sooner. I hope you are feeling better today. I can tell you from experience that dealing with exes is always weird at first... well, it's always weird. I wouldn't talk to him just yet if I were you. It might be better if you deal with your feelings, get a strong stance, and then talk to him if you still think it would help. If you don't think it would be beneficial- don't so it. Spend time with your girlfriends and focus on *you*... You're worth it!
by SPACELACE
1.
a decade ago
Awww. Sounds like you're having a rough time. But like you said, if it has to be done wouldn't you rather just get it over with? Hang in there
:love:
by DOINGTHIS4ME