HAPPYJO's CalorieKing blog
Monday, Feb 2 2009 - Oh man,
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Well ... I had an upsetting weekend ... and turned to all the food I could possibly find to fix the problem well ... that was really more of a Friday problem. I had never had a binge in front of my SO before ... it was really uncomfortable but the thing is I just couldn't seem to stop myself.
This is something I've been aware of for a while ... but it's nice to put it into writing.
Aware of the fact that I can be as committed as I want to losing the weight but until I manage to get these weird binging impulses under control it's going to be one step forward 2 steps back.
The reason I was in a funk on Friday is I had my yearly review and while it was all positive the company I work for isnÂ’t doing as well as they thought they would and they are unable to give me the raise I was supposed to get ... now they are compensating me by giving me an extra week of holidays. So I think I feel angry at myself that I feel ... slighted ... and well ... it all culminated in my Friday night free for all.
Then Saturday was actually not a huge loss ... my friendsÂ’ friend had a best friend party and we all played rock band and that was SO MUCH FUN!!! I want to own Rock Band now something fierce. So my eating was actually pretty on par for Saturday ... I only had one drink as well so I was low on alcohol calories.
Then Sunday ... while it started off very well ... it slowly spiraled out of control. Friggin Super Bowl. Now I know I could have said no thank you to the brownies and cakes and chips and 7 layer dip. But I didn't.
But I have recommitted myself YET again.
I am going to go over to CKU and re-read the binging and eating out sections and hope that casts a little light onto my situation.
This never used to be a problem because I would eat whatever I wanted so ... I never had to binge. So ... this is going to have to be an ongoing struggle for me I think.
Alright I'm off to eat my morning fruit; I hope you all had an excellent weekend.
This is something I've been aware of for a while ... but it's nice to put it into writing.
Aware of the fact that I can be as committed as I want to losing the weight but until I manage to get these weird binging impulses under control it's going to be one step forward 2 steps back.
The reason I was in a funk on Friday is I had my yearly review and while it was all positive the company I work for isnÂ’t doing as well as they thought they would and they are unable to give me the raise I was supposed to get ... now they are compensating me by giving me an extra week of holidays. So I think I feel angry at myself that I feel ... slighted ... and well ... it all culminated in my Friday night free for all.
Then Saturday was actually not a huge loss ... my friendsÂ’ friend had a best friend party and we all played rock band and that was SO MUCH FUN!!! I want to own Rock Band now something fierce. So my eating was actually pretty on par for Saturday ... I only had one drink as well so I was low on alcohol calories.
Then Sunday ... while it started off very well ... it slowly spiraled out of control. Friggin Super Bowl. Now I know I could have said no thank you to the brownies and cakes and chips and 7 layer dip. But I didn't.
But I have recommitted myself YET again.
I am going to go over to CKU and re-read the binging and eating out sections and hope that casts a little light onto my situation.
This never used to be a problem because I would eat whatever I wanted so ... I never had to binge. So ... this is going to have to be an ongoing struggle for me I think.
Alright I'm off to eat my morning fruit; I hope you all had an excellent weekend.
7 comments so far.
7.
a decade ago
Your self awareness always impressed me. Breath and take care of yourself. Judy
by PEANUT
6.
a decade ago
by RHODEYGIRL
5.
a decade ago
good for you for recognizing your behavior! At least you get more time off-I wont get a raise or more time off this year. I am grateful to be employed! Have a great Monday!
=D
by JANEQE
4.
a decade ago
Recognizing a problem is the first step to a solution.
:thumbu2: I know not getting a raise must be upsetting, but at least you still have a job, right? 
:smile1: // The first time I played Rock Band I had way more fun that I thought I would. Husband and I bought Guitar Hero World Tour for our Wii this X-mas, and seriously 
:love: it. // Hope your week is off to a great start!
by KIRSTENA
3.
a decade ago
i'm actually considering suggesting more time off vs a monetary raise this year. at this point what i make is pretty comfortable for me so time is much more important. sounds like you had a good weekend, despite the calorie intake. hope the week is good to you!!
by PITIFULANGUS
2.
a decade ago
It's good that you recognized the binge and why it happened, and now you can move on from it. Today is a new day! You can do it, we are all here to support you. I think it's great that you are going to review the program stuff on CKU, it will definitely help you get back in the right mindset. I hope you have a great Monday today!
=D
by AMY13
1.
a decade ago
It's good that you notice things like this about yourself and you can possibly head them off at the pass. On a positive note, getting an extra week of holiday time is way better than getting laid-off like what is happening all over the country. I was at the grocery store last night and literally the store shelves were empty - because of the SB. I am so glad I didn't partake in all of that.
by ARUBABLUE