JUICERS's Oct 2007 CalorieKing Blog
I want to hide
Wednesday, October 24th 2007
I am very unhappy these days. I hate myself and my body. I'm sad and depressed and want get away from everyone and everything. I don't want to be around people. I want to crawl into my bed, cover my head, and sleep. When I sleep I don't feel the pain. It's strange that I know exactly what I need to do to pull myself out of this, yet I haven't been able to make myself or encourage myself to do so. I know this isn't normal or healthy. Where do I find the balance?Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Wednesday, October 17th 2007
I'm very unhappy with my body right now. My clothes don't fit and I feel ugly. I FEEL HUGE!!!!I'm stuck in a awful cycle of eating ok during the day, but binging at night. I can't seem to stop myself from eating in the evenings. I often want to be alone at home because I want to keep eating. Today is the first day that I will journal the entire day.