I am very unhappy these days. I hate myself and my body. I'm sad and depressed and want get away from everyone and everything. I don't want to be around people. I want to crawl into my bed, cover my head, and sleep. When I sleep I don't feel the pain. It's strange that I know exactly what I need to do to pull myself out of this, yet I haven't been able to make myself or encourage myself to do so. I know this isn't normal or healthy. Where do I find the balance?