I woke up around 4:30 this morning. The first thing I thought of was "oh, I ate way too much last night! I feel so fat." Then as I woke up I realized that this wasn't true. I was within my calorie range for the day. I told myself to stop what I was thinking and to acknowledge that I reached my goal for yesterday. This experience scared me because I realized how I have trained my brain to instantly think about what I did wrong the day before and then beat myself up about it. I'm beginning to see that maybe I'm not as nice to myself as I am to my students and those I work with, let alone my husband. I am constantly taking care of others and have not been taking care of myself. THIS NEEDS TO CHANGE!!!!

Here is to another successful day!!

Evening:
So, after dinner I have eaten less than 1000 calories out of my 1,450 budget. Part of me feels like I need to eat or want to eat. The other part is afraid to eat. I'm afraid if I start I won't be able to stop. During the day I don't even think about eating or food. The evening is different. Once I start snacking I can't stop. So, even though I'm under my calorie target for the day, I don't know if I should eat any more.