Spent 5 hours yesterday cleaning and de cluttering, and cooking to prepare for today. I also scheduled my workouts in my phone. I just can't wing this stuff.

Woke up this morning and thought wow.....I didn't recognize my place, and my food is already to go, and my gym bag is packed. This is definitely what I needed to prepare myself to get into a new frame of mind.

I am afraid of exercise you see, I have since May 2012 when I ended up in emergency. I was in pretty good shape, and then I started the "insanity" work out. After 2 work outs I could feel this was wrong for my body type, but I kept going.

In the middle of me working out I started to blood buckets, and I kinda freaked out and thought I was going to bleed to death and die that night. A lot happened since that night, but I have been afraid of exercise ever since.

Looking back now, over my lifetime, I can clearly see, from childhood, that I don't do well with high intensity anything. The area next to my thyroid starts to hurt when I get to intense, which I know think is kind of a warning to slow down.

I choose now to go with what I am good at. Weights are good for me, and as I stated in my opening blog, I respond really well to that stimulus.

Can anyone advise how I can post my before pictures, front, side and the dreaded back view? Maybe the blog isn't where I should post them? I couldn't find a location to post them on this site.

Oh yes, I woke up today at my lowest weight since I gained 3 years ago, so that is super motivating.