Tuesday, November 13th 2007
Well, I couldn't resist this morning and had a big meal this morning, fattening and unhealthy. But I did it, and I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I'm going to just move forward and try harder! I didn't exercise yesterday, so today I will. I'm back up a little bit but I know I can do this. I have my brother monitoring me now and I feel good about that. Emotionally, I'm ok. With Ron and I separating, I think it'll give me more time to sort out my feelings, get myself on track, stay...Monday, November 12th 2007
I didn't get much sleep last night. I won't be able to exercise today because I have an appointment this evening to talk to a counselor about my decision yesterday. I didn't eat dinner last night because of all the emotional trauma, my stomach was very upset, so I didn't want to irritate it any more than it already was. I am down to 235 but at a cost and in an unhealthy way. I will try very hard to correct that but on the positive side, I didn't eat when I was emotionally upset and to me tha...Sunday, November 11th 2007
Well today, Ron and I argued but he at least left me alone so that I could exercise. The arguement was my fault, I started it, but I'm justed tired of feeling used and worthless, so I stood up for myself. I would like to be free to make decisions with this certain thing but it's always his ways, his choice and his plans. I feel like I'm in boundage with no way out. I wanted to eat all day today but so far I haven't. I'm trying really hard to drink water everytime I want to go into the kitch...Saturday, November 10th 2007
Work out was good with Ed today. He pushed me pretty hard today. Walked 0.89 miles on the treadmill this morning and plan on doing more this evening. Today is going well. I'm positive, feeling good, tired but good. Ed suggested taking short naps after working out to help me recoup better. He feels that my goals are pushing it a little bit but are achievable. I felt good about today and even better about what I ate. The more I do this hard core, the easier it gets. I was tempted while I ...Friday, November 9th 2007
I pretty much had a good day. Ron and I haven't argued in over 3 days and he's actually being very