KLPEARSO's CalorieKing blog
Monday, Feb 18 2008 - Seriously Struggling.....
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Well, I truly apologize for not recording for the last several days. I've been emotionally and physically stressed. I left my husband on Wednesday just before Valentine's Day and just after my birthday. 
It was the right decision and his behavior over the last four days confirms that. My friends, family, son and daughter are all very happy that I did it. I love him though and emotionally it's hard to cope and deal with anything. It was something that I didn't want to do but felt that it was the only way to save my marriage.
I moved into a loft above a barn, but don't worry, it's a very nice loft! I don't have a stove to cook on though so I have to utilize a microwave and a hot plate. So when I went shopping I had to purchase things like Weight Watcher meals, etc for the time being until I get an apartment. I also purchased lots of fruit and vegetables so that I can attempt to stay on track with my weight loss journey.
My friends want me to lose all the weight to show him what he's lost and what he'll be missing. But I don't think that's the right thing to do. I think doing for myself is better. I want to be able to look in the mirror, with or without him, and say "See, you did this and you can do anything your put my mind too! You did it to be healthier, to look amazing and you did this for yourself!"
So I would greatly appreciate all the support anyone can give me right.
It was the right decision and his behavior over the last four days confirms that. My friends, family, son and daughter are all very happy that I did it. I love him though and emotionally it's hard to cope and deal with anything. It was something that I didn't want to do but felt that it was the only way to save my marriage.I moved into a loft above a barn, but don't worry, it's a very nice loft! I don't have a stove to cook on though so I have to utilize a microwave and a hot plate. So when I went shopping I had to purchase things like Weight Watcher meals, etc for the time being until I get an apartment. I also purchased lots of fruit and vegetables so that I can attempt to stay on track with my weight loss journey.
My friends want me to lose all the weight to show him what he's lost and what he'll be missing. But I don't think that's the right thing to do. I think doing for myself is better. I want to be able to look in the mirror, with or without him, and say "See, you did this and you can do anything your put my mind too! You did it to be healthier, to look amazing and you did this for yourself!"
So I would greatly appreciate all the support anyone can give me right.
3 comments so far.
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a decade ago
I want to echo what has already been said to you, In Christ you can do all things. He also promises not to leave you and to to be your comforter. We could see that you have been struggling for a long time and will need time to heal. Let the Lord take you into His care and your friends and family help you as you seek His guidance during this time. We also will be here to support you.Also note that this may make it hard for you to lose because of the stress you will encounter, but I still believe you will be able to keep tabs on your eating during this time. Lose the weight for yourself because it makes you feel better about yourself and Christ wants us to be healthy. Take care my friend.
by MOUGHI
2.
a decade ago
Hi, Karen. You are going through something right now...but try to remember that while we will sometimes walk through darkness we are no longer in it, thanks to salvation through Christ. You will eventually come out this and you will be stronger for it. I don't know what your future plans are, or if reconcilliation is possible, but what I do know is that you made a hard decision, but the best one for you. If you can do that now, then I know you will have success with your health. You are right not to do it for anyone except yourself. You CAN do this and YOU are worth it.
:smile1:
Praying for ya'
by TLJOSEPH
1.
a decade ago
Hi - I know it's difficult. And of course losing weight on top of that emotional rollercoaster doesn't help. But definatly do it for yourself, when you acheive a loss it will mean so much more, and then if you want to strut, You go GIRL
:)
I'm with ya! Good Luck on your new start!
by MSMSHAFFER1205