I'm sorry that I haven't been on for a while but a lot has happened in the last several months. I finally left my husband and plans are in the works for a divorce. I can no longer be his sexual slave and I'm tired of being quiet about it. I left him because he doesn't think he has a problem with sex addiction and I'm tired of being his whore! Married or not, he has not right to treat me that way! Women need to be loved and appreciated, and not just some man's sex toy!!!!

So I moved to Seattle, Washington to be with my family and get to know my nephews! I'm scared outta my mind, and I'm an emotional wreck but I had to do this. I've been eating a lot less and I've been working out the last several days. I got here on November 1 and weighted 251 and yesterday, I weighted 245! So I am getting it done! I'm doing this for myself, to feel better, to look better and to be healthy! My brother is a health and fitness guru and I'm letting him help me. But because of my situation, he's at least being gentle, kind and just starting slow with me. I've seen a side to my brother that I've never seen before and I am so glad to get to know him again.

Time heals all hurts they say. Well why does it have to hurt so much? Why is it, that when your the one doing it the right way and for all the right reasons be the one that has to cry all the time? I was walking today on the treadmill at the gym and I just started crying ! I cried for a long time tonight. I feel a little better but I have a feeling that a lot more needs to come out. I will ge through this and I will be a better person for it. I know I tried my best to be the best wife I could be. He was just too much of a nacissist (spelling) to see what he had. This is his lost and he'll be sorry later!!!

Back with a vengence!!!