Well, I've had some very rough months. My brother ended up moving to Costa Rica so I had to find another place to live. It took me over 4 months to find a job. I'm in the middle of a nasty divorce. I've gained weight. I'm lonely beyond what I thought I would be.

But with all that said and done, I'm still here, I'm still alive and I'm still going to lose weight and feel good about myself. Now is the time for me to concentrate on me and do what I have to do. I have no more excuses left. Really. So when I don't do this, I'm only hurting myself now. I've joined a gym (Bally's) because it was so cheap and they have a pool so I can go swimming.

I've re-established my goals and set up a work out schedule and even found a way to come up with some extra money for a few hours with a personal trainer. I'm also re-establishing my healthy eating diet, will be shopping tonight and getting it portioned to make it easier for me to just grap and go. So that will start tomorrow!

Moods are good. I've been a little lonely but I'm learning how to be content with my life as it is. It isn't easy. My biggest issue is weekends. I have a tendency to stay home, watch T.V. and never leave the house. So I going to work on that this weekend and force myself to go somewhere, even if it's down to the beach to go for a walk with Buster (my dog). Fresh air and the walk will do both of us some good.

So until tomorrow.....