Today was my appointment to have my psychological evaluation. The process is relatively painless but it just seems ridiculous that this is the second such evaluation I have had in the past eighteen months. I mean, it's just so unfair. I had all of this done. I was on the table, unconscious, being cut open . . . and now I'm back to square one. Yesterday the nutritionist, today the psychologist, Monday the surgeon . . . and I'm still not confident I will get my gastric bypass procedure this year.

Luckily, Gael, the wonderful mental health professional doing my evaluation, always leaves me feeling wonderful about myself and my circumstances. She is an amazing woman. She helped me not only by doing the evaluation I need to have my surgery, but she also helped me with a few new ideas. I am going to try to embrace the possibility that my beliefs impact my reality. If I believe that I will get my gastric bypass and continue to lose weight and that I will get off my medication then I will. It's definitely a better plan than obsessing on how I probably won't get approved for the procedure.

Gael also introduced me to the concept of "Namaste." This Hindu greeting which can mean "that which is of God in me greets that which is of God in you" or "the Divinity within me perceives and adores the Divinity within you" is something that I intend to make part of my daily life. I've believed for much of my adult life that my way to God (through Christ) is not the only way to God. This concept of Namaste is just another way I can honor God and all his children.

Anyway, it's been an interesting day. Only three more days until the big appointment with Dr. Khaitan. I know that everything will go well.

Namaste